Just to inform everybody here. I finally saw my evening gown today! I went for my first fitting today and Tan Yoong said I can collect it next week. Muahahaha, my wedding is one week and 3 days from today.
I have brought my matress and I am still left with a comforter, quilt cover, bed sheets and two pillows. My mum still need to buy two table lamps, baby tubs, pails for me. I still need to finish making my living room curtains and hopefully my bedroom curtains, clean up my cat's paws prints on my living room.
I think I am on schedule except for the curtains part. I hope my curtains will turn out nice.
My ikea furniture came today.
I really worked hard today. Vacumme and mopped the floor, built up two side table with drawers for my bed and do a lot of housework. My queen side bed, sofa and two wall mounted shelves came and suddenly my house look crowed.
Death near my wedding
Two more persons were not be coming to my wedding. My mother's sister's mother in-law die two months ago and my mother's sister family cannot come to my wedding. I dunno where this "law" came about and because her family cannot come, I have got half a table empty now.
This week, one of my hubby's uncle died. We got four tables of relatives not coming to our wedding suddenly. We are now having problem invitating people to our wedding. I got so much empty tables. This is one of the problem you will face if you decide to hold a wedding dinner.
My ikea furniture will be coming tomorrow and I am very eager to see them coming too.
This week, one of my hubby's uncle died. We got four tables of relatives not coming to our wedding suddenly. We are now having problem invitating people to our wedding. I got so much empty tables. This is one of the problem you will face if you decide to hold a wedding dinner.
My ikea furniture will be coming tomorrow and I am very eager to see them coming too.
My hubby is depress again.
After all the crying, I have straighten up my thoughts and pick myself up.
I guessed my hubby was depressed again. Maybe it is wrong of me to cried infront of him and just run out of the house like that. But I cannot control that, I was feeling very sad too.
I guess he will sms me in the middle of the night again, telling me all that stuffs again.
I think for my part, I will have to tell myself that I will be marrying a depress husband in two weeks time, stay with him forever that way and tried to change him for the better. I need to keep myself sane at the same time while we are going through life, we have taken our vows three years ago that we will be going through thick and thin.
Well, if he start smoking again, I will just have to wipe my tears dry and tell him that it hurts me when you smoke. I will also have to recognise the fact that his depression will have the possibility to pass on to his future children if he has one. I will also have to be his children consultor too.
I hope that he will not end his life as he has promise me not to five years ago. I had reminded him that the last depression he got and he said sorry he might break the promise. Sometime, it make me so frighten hearing him said all these things. I think I need to see a doctor myself if this goes on.
I guessed my hubby was depressed again. Maybe it is wrong of me to cried infront of him and just run out of the house like that. But I cannot control that, I was feeling very sad too.
I guess he will sms me in the middle of the night again, telling me all that stuffs again.
I think for my part, I will have to tell myself that I will be marrying a depress husband in two weeks time, stay with him forever that way and tried to change him for the better. I need to keep myself sane at the same time while we are going through life, we have taken our vows three years ago that we will be going through thick and thin.
Well, if he start smoking again, I will just have to wipe my tears dry and tell him that it hurts me when you smoke. I will also have to recognise the fact that his depression will have the possibility to pass on to his future children if he has one. I will also have to be his children consultor too.
I hope that he will not end his life as he has promise me not to five years ago. I had reminded him that the last depression he got and he said sorry he might break the promise. Sometime, it make me so frighten hearing him said all these things. I think I need to see a doctor myself if this goes on.
Gou Da Li
I go through my Gou Da Li today. It is a small event where the groom family will bring food stuff and gold and money to the bride home and the bride family will return some of the stuffs.
I am also very sad today. After mopping the floor, clean my kitchen, my hubby told me that he has been smoking again. I felt so cheated. I ran out of the house, cried in the public and cry as I am typing this. I dunno why he has to spoilt my marriage like this. I really hate him now.
I dunno why I had to marry this man. I am thinking about divorving him right now. I know I am getting very emotional now. I cannot think straight. Why does he has to say all these things two weeks to our wedding. I hate him now.
I am also very sad today. After mopping the floor, clean my kitchen, my hubby told me that he has been smoking again. I felt so cheated. I ran out of the house, cried in the public and cry as I am typing this. I dunno why he has to spoilt my marriage like this. I really hate him now.
I dunno why I had to marry this man. I am thinking about divorving him right now. I know I am getting very emotional now. I cannot think straight. Why does he has to say all these things two weeks to our wedding. I hate him now.
Ang Bow Money
I was stressed out again this afternoon.
I told my mum that I will be giving her the ang bow from those 5 tables she requested instead of writing them a cheque. My sister disagreed and said that nobody do that.
My mum asked me to seek advices from my sister since she is married two years ago. My sister kept saying that it is only right that we give a sum to my parents in the mode of cash or cheque not ang bows. I explained that it does not really matter because the money will still come from the ang bow collect from those 5 tables of guest. She continue to say that there will be people that do not write their names on those angbow and so how are we going to know who are the people.
I dun think that we are having a proper discussion with my sister. She is telling me what to do instead of discussing it with me. She is not even looking at the pro and cons from both sides and just because she has not heard or seen anybody giving angbows she said that nobody do it like that. For the whole afternoon, I was really piss off. I almost ran out of the house.
I have a discussion with my hubby. Sometime, I think my hubby is really good in anlysis stuffs. He agreed that we should give the ang bows back to my parents instead of writing a cheque. The reason is that we do not know how much to write. What if the cheque we give is too little? If we give my parents the unopen angbows from those 5 tables and it turn out to be very little, then my parents cannot anything.
I told my mum that I will be giving her the ang bow from those 5 tables she requested instead of writing them a cheque. My sister disagreed and said that nobody do that.
My mum asked me to seek advices from my sister since she is married two years ago. My sister kept saying that it is only right that we give a sum to my parents in the mode of cash or cheque not ang bows. I explained that it does not really matter because the money will still come from the ang bow collect from those 5 tables of guest. She continue to say that there will be people that do not write their names on those angbow and so how are we going to know who are the people.
I dun think that we are having a proper discussion with my sister. She is telling me what to do instead of discussing it with me. She is not even looking at the pro and cons from both sides and just because she has not heard or seen anybody giving angbows she said that nobody do it like that. For the whole afternoon, I was really piss off. I almost ran out of the house.
I have a discussion with my hubby. Sometime, I think my hubby is really good in anlysis stuffs. He agreed that we should give the ang bows back to my parents instead of writing a cheque. The reason is that we do not know how much to write. What if the cheque we give is too little? If we give my parents the unopen angbows from those 5 tables and it turn out to be very little, then my parents cannot anything.
Trial Makeup
I went for my trial makeup today. I think I look ok with my full makeup, hairdo, accessories and my wedding gown. Actually, I caught my sister, who went with me today, looking shock when I put on my wedding gown. I loved that effect, but I still think I look ok only. I guess I am just not confident with myself.
My makeup artist wanted me to get the flower you see above for my hairdo on my actual day. I have email the picture to my ex-colleague who will be in-charge of my flowers.
I have nothing else to do for my wedding gown. All I need to do is wait for my hubby to tell me when is he free to go down to pick up my wedding gown.
I am left with two weeks two days to my actual day and the amazing thing is that I still have not see my evening gown yet. Surprisingly, I have not freak out yet.
Ikea
I have went to ikea by myself today and has brought 2 glass wall mounted shelves, all the curtains rods for the whole house, our bed, 2 bed side table, sofa & 6 foldable chairs. I have spend $2000++ including installation and delivery.
I have chosen a white bed with 2 white side table for our master bedroom. I dun see any other colour that is pleasing to my eyes althought our white bed might not look good when it is old. I am going to shop for my pretty bedsheet which I think I will be more excited than shopping for my bed.
I find ikea curtains a bit expensive and ended up did not get any. I think I will still make my own curtains althought I have no ideas how our bedroom is going to look like. My hubby can be difficult to please. I just hope that whatever I have choosen today, he will not complain later. It is a bit tiring to shop on my own. If things were for myself only, I will not have feel so stress.
I am thinking of a pretty pink girlish bed sheet now. I hope my hubby will agree.
I have chosen a white bed with 2 white side table for our master bedroom. I dun see any other colour that is pleasing to my eyes althought our white bed might not look good when it is old. I am going to shop for my pretty bedsheet which I think I will be more excited than shopping for my bed.
I find ikea curtains a bit expensive and ended up did not get any. I think I will still make my own curtains althought I have no ideas how our bedroom is going to look like. My hubby can be difficult to please. I just hope that whatever I have choosen today, he will not complain later. It is a bit tiring to shop on my own. If things were for myself only, I will not have feel so stress.
I am thinking of a pretty pink girlish bed sheet now. I hope my hubby will agree.
Facial done
Had done my fourth facial today and cut my hair in front. I think the hairdresser made my hair look really bad. I hope my make up artist can come out with something good. I think I have to quit going to that shop to cut my hair again, but then, where else can I go? I hate changing hairdresser.
We went to shop for our bed at Ang Mo Kio's court today and did not see the bed that we wanted. Surprisingly, that big courts did not offer us many beds and we did not even see the sofa we wanted.
Back at home, I took out the ikea catalog and saw a nice white queen size bed. I sms my hubby and ask if it is all right with him. He gave an ok sign and tomorrow I am going to ikea...alone. I have to buy my bed, 2 side table, curtain rods, maybe curtains, sofa, coffee table, shelves for my toys and maybe wall shelve, by myself. I think this marriage is going to make me stronger.
We went to shop for our bed at Ang Mo Kio's court today and did not see the bed that we wanted. Surprisingly, that big courts did not offer us many beds and we did not even see the sofa we wanted.
Back at home, I took out the ikea catalog and saw a nice white queen size bed. I sms my hubby and ask if it is all right with him. He gave an ok sign and tomorrow I am going to ikea...alone. I have to buy my bed, 2 side table, curtain rods, maybe curtains, sofa, coffee table, shelves for my toys and maybe wall shelve, by myself. I think this marriage is going to make me stronger.
Gold
Today, my mother in-law brought $1700 worth of gold for me. These gold will be given on Gou Da Li and the wedding actual day itself. My mother in-law's mother will be giving me one of the gold ring she brought today. I must said that they will very generous. However, on my way back, my hubby told me that he has given my mother in-law $2000 for her to buy gold for me.
My hubby has order the cakes vouchers and the cakes to be deliver to my house on Gou Da Li. I also have shifted a little bit more things to my new house and cleaned up a little bit of the house. It was really tiring trying to do so many things.
I realise that my wedding is just very near. I am getting excited too.
My hubby has order the cakes vouchers and the cakes to be deliver to my house on Gou Da Li. I also have shifted a little bit more things to my new house and cleaned up a little bit of the house. It was really tiring trying to do so many things.
I realise that my wedding is just very near. I am getting excited too.
nice things my hubby just said to me
I got to share something with everybody here. This is what my hubby said to me just now.
"Even if we screw up our wedding, we are still married. It is not like an exam which if you screw up you still have to retake the paper. So why are you so kan cheong?"
Sometime, I think my hubby will say the nicest thing at the correct time. I dun know if you agreed to this but the words make me less stress.
"Even if we screw up our wedding, we are still married. It is not like an exam which if you screw up you still have to retake the paper. So why are you so kan cheong?"
Sometime, I think my hubby will say the nicest thing at the correct time. I dun know if you agreed to this but the words make me less stress.
Psycharistrist? His answer is NO!
I went for my evening gown measurement and my wedding gown fitting today. I can see my wedding gown getting very pretty each time I went and I am so happy to see things are ready.
My hubby called me during my evening gown session and asked me to accompany him to see a doctor. He complains of a terrible headache and we went to the hospital after my wedding gown fitting. We waited soooooo long in the hospital and the doctor gives my hubby a pill and make him wait at the reception for one hour to see if there is any reaction.
My hubby told me that the pill was a mind relaxator and if any vomitting or faint occur, then he will have to be ward in. The doctor checked him and realise that there was nothing wrong with him. After 3 hours of waiting, we finally get ourself out of the hospital and finally go for our dinner.
While we were in the hopsital, I asked my hubby if I can go in with him to see the doctor. He asked me why I wanted to do that. I told him that I wanted to make sure that he answer all doctor questions correctly. My hubby gives me a weird face. I give him an example, if the doctor asked if he ever thinks of taking his own life, I will have to make sure he answered "yes".
My hubby look at me with his weird face again,"No I did not think of taking my own life".
"Oh yes, you did", I quickly said,"You just told me that last night."
"No, I told you I am having a headache and I feel like dying", he tried to explain.
"Then why do you sms me your POSB pin number and remind me of your insurance?" I question him.
"That was because just in case I really dies", he answered.
Then he asked me:"You think I am suffering from depression?"
I said:"yes".
He looked at me and laughed, then he did not said anything.
I asked him again:"How about you go and see a psycharistrist?"
He answered:"No!".
"How about I go with you to see a psycharistrist?", I asked again.
He answered:"No!".
"How about I pay for the fees to see a psycharistrist?", I asked again.
He answered:"No!".
I think I am giving up. I have to just pray hard that he do not call me in the middle of the night and talk about his death and his insurance.
My hubby called me during my evening gown session and asked me to accompany him to see a doctor. He complains of a terrible headache and we went to the hospital after my wedding gown fitting. We waited soooooo long in the hospital and the doctor gives my hubby a pill and make him wait at the reception for one hour to see if there is any reaction.
My hubby told me that the pill was a mind relaxator and if any vomitting or faint occur, then he will have to be ward in. The doctor checked him and realise that there was nothing wrong with him. After 3 hours of waiting, we finally get ourself out of the hospital and finally go for our dinner.
While we were in the hopsital, I asked my hubby if I can go in with him to see the doctor. He asked me why I wanted to do that. I told him that I wanted to make sure that he answer all doctor questions correctly. My hubby gives me a weird face. I give him an example, if the doctor asked if he ever thinks of taking his own life, I will have to make sure he answered "yes".
My hubby look at me with his weird face again,"No I did not think of taking my own life".
"Oh yes, you did", I quickly said,"You just told me that last night."
"No, I told you I am having a headache and I feel like dying", he tried to explain.
"Then why do you sms me your POSB pin number and remind me of your insurance?" I question him.
"That was because just in case I really dies", he answered.
Then he asked me:"You think I am suffering from depression?"
I said:"yes".
He looked at me and laughed, then he did not said anything.
I asked him again:"How about you go and see a psycharistrist?"
He answered:"No!".
"How about I go with you to see a psycharistrist?", I asked again.
He answered:"No!".
"How about I pay for the fees to see a psycharistrist?", I asked again.
He answered:"No!".
I think I am giving up. I have to just pray hard that he do not call me in the middle of the night and talk about his death and his insurance.
My hubby needs consultation
After crying for the whole night, I think I have straighten up my thoughts. It is quite clear that my hubby is suffering from depression and he needs consultation fast. I will still go on with my wedding, in the mean time, try to get my hubby to see a doctor.
Getting him to see a doctor is a very difficult part. He dun believe in seeing one in the first place and he feels that only insane people go for consultation. He thinks that it is a waste of time and money and he will even tell me what he expected the doctor to say to him. It is going to be a very difficult part.
In the mean time, I think I shall have to read up some tropics on depression and maybe see one myself. I need to act fast before he do anything silly to himself. I dun want to be a widow yet.
Getting him to see a doctor is a very difficult part. He dun believe in seeing one in the first place and he feels that only insane people go for consultation. He thinks that it is a waste of time and money and he will even tell me what he expected the doctor to say to him. It is going to be a very difficult part.
In the mean time, I think I shall have to read up some tropics on depression and maybe see one myself. I need to act fast before he do anything silly to himself. I dun want to be a widow yet.
I am having a hard time now.
I have went out with my friend today and had a wonderful time with her. We went shopping and chatting and I reached home around mid-night.
My hubby then call me and told me he got a very bad headache. He told me that he cannot sleep and think that he is dying. I told him to eat some panadol and go and try to sleep. He told me he has already eaten 10 pills of panadol and is still having that bac headache. He kept saying that he is dying and asked me to claim his insurance if he dies.
I kept telling him that he is making me very worried and tell him not to talk about this type of things. He also told me to write down his saving bank pin number so that I could withdraw the money out when he dies. I told him that he will be all right and I only wants him to be all right and nothing else.
He told me that he kept a secret from me. He told me that he has been smoking. Upon hearing that I broke down. You may thinks that there is nothing wrong with smoking. Well, I cannot accept my hubby to smoke.
When I know him, he is smoking like 2 packets a day. I told him straight that I cannot accept someone who smoke to be my boyfriend or husband. Because of me, he quit smoking in 6 months time and did everything to touch my heart. I was very moved. Before we registered for our marriage three years ago, he did broke his promise once. I cried and he asked for forgiveness. I decided to give him a chance and married him. Come to think of it, I regreted now.
It is now less than a month to my big day. He told me that he smoke again. I felt cheated. I really hate him for that. He is always breaking my heart. It is hard enough trying to cope with somebody that is so negative and I just want to try to believe in him and trust him. He has broken his promise so many time. His reason is always he is stress. I am very tired to hearing this over and over again.
I really dunno what to do. Tomorrow I am going to try on my wedding gown and take measurement for my evening gown alone. I really dunno how to do all this things anymore. Am I going to married this man? or give him another chance and divorce him if he smoke again? I really felt so cheated.
This is what he just sms me:
"I am sorry; too stress. No means to break my promiss but can't do help it. It can relief my stress. If anthing happens, I love you forever. Sad to say; this is the only promiss i never break. I feel bad lying and hiding from you. Everything is my fault. I hate myself. If only i could never wake up..."
My hubby then call me and told me he got a very bad headache. He told me that he cannot sleep and think that he is dying. I told him to eat some panadol and go and try to sleep. He told me he has already eaten 10 pills of panadol and is still having that bac headache. He kept saying that he is dying and asked me to claim his insurance if he dies.
I kept telling him that he is making me very worried and tell him not to talk about this type of things. He also told me to write down his saving bank pin number so that I could withdraw the money out when he dies. I told him that he will be all right and I only wants him to be all right and nothing else.
He told me that he kept a secret from me. He told me that he has been smoking. Upon hearing that I broke down. You may thinks that there is nothing wrong with smoking. Well, I cannot accept my hubby to smoke.
When I know him, he is smoking like 2 packets a day. I told him straight that I cannot accept someone who smoke to be my boyfriend or husband. Because of me, he quit smoking in 6 months time and did everything to touch my heart. I was very moved. Before we registered for our marriage three years ago, he did broke his promise once. I cried and he asked for forgiveness. I decided to give him a chance and married him. Come to think of it, I regreted now.
It is now less than a month to my big day. He told me that he smoke again. I felt cheated. I really hate him for that. He is always breaking my heart. It is hard enough trying to cope with somebody that is so negative and I just want to try to believe in him and trust him. He has broken his promise so many time. His reason is always he is stress. I am very tired to hearing this over and over again.
I really dunno what to do. Tomorrow I am going to try on my wedding gown and take measurement for my evening gown alone. I really dunno how to do all this things anymore. Am I going to married this man? or give him another chance and divorce him if he smoke again? I really felt so cheated.
This is what he just sms me:
"I am sorry; too stress. No means to break my promiss but can't do help it. It can relief my stress. If anthing happens, I love you forever. Sad to say; this is the only promiss i never break. I feel bad lying and hiding from you. Everything is my fault. I hate myself. If only i could never wake up..."
A very nicely done wedding album site
This is not mine. Well, I wish this is mine. The site was very nicely done and it inspire me to do something like that too. Ok, the question is which free hosting should I use? I dun wish to pay for my wedding album every year. Or shall I pay for one year only and forget about the second year?
Ok, I shall post the URL here. http://www.bcknot.com
Ok, I shall post the URL here. http://www.bcknot.com
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Food Tasting
We went for our food tasting today. My in-laws changed the whole set of menu and a few dishes. We have to pay $50 more for a table.
I dun wish to say anything now.
I dun wish to say anything now.
Wedding Songs
I have collected some songs for my wedding last night. Most of them will English songs which I think most of my guest will not understand. It is very difficult to collect chinese pop songs for wedding because a lot of them were sad songs.
I have decide to use Faye Wong, Wo Yuan Yi, for my 1st match-in and my sister will help me to do some editing to the song. I still dunno what to use for my second match-in.
By the way, my evening gown designer faxed me something yesterday after I make a few call to him.
I have decide to use Faye Wong, Wo Yuan Yi, for my 1st match-in and my sister will help me to do some editing to the song. I still dunno what to use for my second match-in.
By the way, my evening gown designer faxed me something yesterday after I make a few call to him.
We went to look for our bed again
It was so tiring. We cannot decide on what type. We cannot decide on how to decorate the room so that it look decent. I think we almost quarrel just like what we did when we first renovate our house. Except that this time, both of us were tired.
We went to Harvey Norman and saw some surprisingly cheap bed. There were a few of them that look quite nice but the headboard was a bit too high. On our way back, we went to Picker and Rail and we found a $599 bed that comes with a matress. It got a bit of country look but looking at the price, I think I can accept the look of it. Then we went to courts and found a platform bed that cost $549.
We have previously agreed that we will not buy a platform bed because my hubby finds it a bit too low. However we saw a lot of platform bed that I like and I think my hubby can see that I like too. He also prefer a king size bed but having measured our bedroom, we find that a king size bed was not feasible at all. At one point, my hubby wanted a diva set bed but I find it too bulky. I also do not like the leather look in my bedroom. I really dunno what we wanted.
Anyway, my hubby tell me to make the decision. He also asked me to buy the bed myself. I felt kind of sad because I thought we are suppose to do this kind of things together. However, whenever we discuss our house, we always ended up sulking at each other.
While he was driving me back, he told me that instead of painting the wall behind green, I can put up a green curtain. After a while, he told me that a green curtain is going to be very ugly. He continue to tell me that he is sick of seeing all the green in the house. He complains about our feature wall being green with the grey boxes on the wall collecting all the dust. He complain about our green bedroom door and he feel sick when he saw the white door frame that goes with the green door. Then he continue to whined about the house being dirty here and there. I was thinking that if he do not make the effort to clean up the house, it will be dirty. Then he continue to comment that our house is very difficult to maintain. The true fact is that our house is very empty, there was almost nothing to clean, but if you do not clean the window and the top of the table, of course things will be dirty. I did not tell him all this, I do not want to start a quarrel.
While I was typing all these, I realise that my hubby was really negative about everything. He was always complaining about me, about the house, about his mum and about his relative. I think I am going to have a hard life when I moved in. I am now still a happy go lucky girl but sometime I feel really sad when I was with him. I think I need something to keep myself sane.
We went to Harvey Norman and saw some surprisingly cheap bed. There were a few of them that look quite nice but the headboard was a bit too high. On our way back, we went to Picker and Rail and we found a $599 bed that comes with a matress. It got a bit of country look but looking at the price, I think I can accept the look of it. Then we went to courts and found a platform bed that cost $549.
We have previously agreed that we will not buy a platform bed because my hubby finds it a bit too low. However we saw a lot of platform bed that I like and I think my hubby can see that I like too. He also prefer a king size bed but having measured our bedroom, we find that a king size bed was not feasible at all. At one point, my hubby wanted a diva set bed but I find it too bulky. I also do not like the leather look in my bedroom. I really dunno what we wanted.
Anyway, my hubby tell me to make the decision. He also asked me to buy the bed myself. I felt kind of sad because I thought we are suppose to do this kind of things together. However, whenever we discuss our house, we always ended up sulking at each other.
While he was driving me back, he told me that instead of painting the wall behind green, I can put up a green curtain. After a while, he told me that a green curtain is going to be very ugly. He continue to tell me that he is sick of seeing all the green in the house. He complains about our feature wall being green with the grey boxes on the wall collecting all the dust. He complain about our green bedroom door and he feel sick when he saw the white door frame that goes with the green door. Then he continue to whined about the house being dirty here and there. I was thinking that if he do not make the effort to clean up the house, it will be dirty. Then he continue to comment that our house is very difficult to maintain. The true fact is that our house is very empty, there was almost nothing to clean, but if you do not clean the window and the top of the table, of course things will be dirty. I did not tell him all this, I do not want to start a quarrel.
While I was typing all these, I realise that my hubby was really negative about everything. He was always complaining about me, about the house, about his mum and about his relative. I think I am going to have a hard life when I moved in. I am now still a happy go lucky girl but sometime I feel really sad when I was with him. I think I need something to keep myself sane.
Second Fitting (Wedding gown)
I went for my second fitting yesterday. My wedding gown fitted on me so nicely and I was quite happy with my designer. I brought my white tea dress to show my designer and she gives me a big white flowers with some beadings to go with it. I think my wedding gown designer is so nice.
I have not hear from my evening gown designer yet. He has promised to fax me my evening design last week and I have not seen it yet. He is really making me very nervous. I have tried to call them in the morning and it seems like they were not open yet. I have to remember to call them again in the afternoon.
Oh yes, somebody commented in Blog Explosion on why I call my hubby "hubby" since we were not married yet. We have actually registered our marriage three years ago so in the eyes of law, we are husband and wife. We are actually going through our preparation of our customary wedding.
I have not hear from my evening gown designer yet. He has promised to fax me my evening design last week and I have not seen it yet. He is really making me very nervous. I have tried to call them in the morning and it seems like they were not open yet. I have to remember to call them again in the afternoon.
Oh yes, somebody commented in Blog Explosion on why I call my hubby "hubby" since we were not married yet. We have actually registered our marriage three years ago so in the eyes of law, we are husband and wife. We are actually going through our preparation of our customary wedding.
I am very worried about my married life
We went shopping for our bed today. At first, we were all right. We walk around the first floor then we went to the second floor. It was at this time that I realise that his mood is changing again. After the second floor, we go ahead and shop at the third floor. We saw three bed that we like.
We went back to the second storey where we thought that one of the bed that we like was at the second storey. We walked around and cannot find the shop. We finally ended up at the first storey where we found that shop and enquire about the bed. Then we went to another shop and enquire another bed, then another shop and enquire another bed.
After all that, we went to have our dinner. From this moment, we were very quiet and I dun dare to talk as usual as I notice something was wrong with my hubby. After our dinner, I asked if I can go to our new house and take the measurement. I think I make a mistake to ask. I could just do it anytime and go there by myself, but that was my house and I paid for it. Why am I asking permission if I can go a not?
He did not rejected me, although I wished he did. He drove me to the new house and throughout the whole journey, we just keep quiet. We measured our room and realise that our master bedroom was really too small. It do not have the space to put in a king size bed which my hubby wanted. We had a small discussion and my hubby finally said that I will make the decision. I will have to go and get the bed myself and I will have to choose the bed myself. Then he started hitting his own head with his hands.
I kept quiet. Finally, I walk out of the room and one of my cat wanted to go into the room. My hubby screamed at my cat and my cat dashed out of the room. I dunno what to do.
My hubby finally came out of the room and I told him that it is time for me to go back and I will go back myself. He insisted that he will drive me home. I still remember the reckless journey on our way here. He went into the kitchen, I dunno how many panadol he takes (he got a record of taking ten panadol at one time).
I think we got another reckless journey home, but I was home in a piece. At the same time, I was really worried about his saftely. If he continue to drive like that, I am scare that I might lost him one day. I do not want to nag at him for driving like that because he might screamed at me if I do that.
He just sms me to said sorry and he was very stress about his work. I sms him back that he is making me very worried about our married life and I really do not wish that he call me now. I dun want to speak to him now. I know that I will cry if I talk to him now. If my mum will to see me crying, she will be very worried about me.
I dunno if these are the signs to tell me not to get married to this man. I know that I am not having my PMS now so I am not emotional about the whole thing. I guess if I am having my PMS now or if I am pregnant now, my thinking might go very wild. I think I am starting to have cold feet about getting married.
We went back to the second storey where we thought that one of the bed that we like was at the second storey. We walked around and cannot find the shop. We finally ended up at the first storey where we found that shop and enquire about the bed. Then we went to another shop and enquire another bed, then another shop and enquire another bed.
After all that, we went to have our dinner. From this moment, we were very quiet and I dun dare to talk as usual as I notice something was wrong with my hubby. After our dinner, I asked if I can go to our new house and take the measurement. I think I make a mistake to ask. I could just do it anytime and go there by myself, but that was my house and I paid for it. Why am I asking permission if I can go a not?
He did not rejected me, although I wished he did. He drove me to the new house and throughout the whole journey, we just keep quiet. We measured our room and realise that our master bedroom was really too small. It do not have the space to put in a king size bed which my hubby wanted. We had a small discussion and my hubby finally said that I will make the decision. I will have to go and get the bed myself and I will have to choose the bed myself. Then he started hitting his own head with his hands.
I kept quiet. Finally, I walk out of the room and one of my cat wanted to go into the room. My hubby screamed at my cat and my cat dashed out of the room. I dunno what to do.
My hubby finally came out of the room and I told him that it is time for me to go back and I will go back myself. He insisted that he will drive me home. I still remember the reckless journey on our way here. He went into the kitchen, I dunno how many panadol he takes (he got a record of taking ten panadol at one time).
I think we got another reckless journey home, but I was home in a piece. At the same time, I was really worried about his saftely. If he continue to drive like that, I am scare that I might lost him one day. I do not want to nag at him for driving like that because he might screamed at me if I do that.
He just sms me to said sorry and he was very stress about his work. I sms him back that he is making me very worried about our married life and I really do not wish that he call me now. I dun want to speak to him now. I know that I will cry if I talk to him now. If my mum will to see me crying, she will be very worried about me.
I dunno if these are the signs to tell me not to get married to this man. I know that I am not having my PMS now so I am not emotional about the whole thing. I guess if I am having my PMS now or if I am pregnant now, my thinking might go very wild. I think I am starting to have cold feet about getting married.
Lots of stuffs to do.
I have shifted more stuffs to my new house and pack those stuffs that I have shifted. I realise that I got a lot of junk and it will be nice if I can sell them in ebay or Yahoo auction when I sit at home after I get married. However, my hubby keeps complaining that I got too much stuffs.
I have also brought my wedding stickers, they are for sticking to tubs, bowls, doors, oranges, whatever. My mum reminded me that I will have to get my own suitcase which I have to put some of my clothing inside and after Gou Da Li, shift my clothing in my new suitcase to my new house. I am too lazy to go out and buy one, besides that, I have to remember to buy my bed, my bedsheet, paint my master bedroom, buy the curtains rods and install them, sew my curtains, etc.
I have also brought my wedding stickers, they are for sticking to tubs, bowls, doors, oranges, whatever. My mum reminded me that I will have to get my own suitcase which I have to put some of my clothing inside and after Gou Da Li, shift my clothing in my new suitcase to my new house. I am too lazy to go out and buy one, besides that, I have to remember to buy my bed, my bedsheet, paint my master bedroom, buy the curtains rods and install them, sew my curtains, etc.
Complete writing my wedding cards.
I have finally finish writing all my invitation cards. Now I am waiting to meet my friends and hand deliver to them. I meet my friends very often especially near Christmas, I dun have to bother the postman.
If my hubby has not called and said that he is getting the invitations cards from me tomorrow, I guess I will still sit on my wedding cards. He said that some of his friends need our wedding cards to take leave. One of his friend job require him to travel a lot and he need our invitation cards to tell his boss that he cannot travel around that time. This is the first time I heard of such reasons.
My hubby called me today and said that by this week we must get our bed. I told him that I got another facial session this Saturday and he said that we will have to shop for our bed during the weekdays. I guess my mother in-law is pressurizing him.
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If my hubby has not called and said that he is getting the invitations cards from me tomorrow, I guess I will still sit on my wedding cards. He said that some of his friends need our wedding cards to take leave. One of his friend job require him to travel a lot and he need our invitation cards to tell his boss that he cannot travel around that time. This is the first time I heard of such reasons.
My hubby called me today and said that by this week we must get our bed. I told him that I got another facial session this Saturday and he said that we will have to shop for our bed during the weekdays. I guess my mother in-law is pressurizing him.
Found this very useful link. Bridesmaid 101 is a source for Bridesmaid and Maid of Honor planning. They have free information about your bridesmaid dress or gowns, Maid of Honor speech, bridesmaid gift and accessory ideas, will help make your experience as a bridesmaid a success!
Another Story: A girl in love asked her boyfriend...
Girl (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this world?
Boy (b): You, of course!
(g): In your heart, what am I to you?
(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
"You are my rib."
In the Bible, it was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve.
Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart.
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a long while.
However, the youthful couple, due to busy schedule of modern life, the never-ending worries of daily problems, began to drift apart and their life became mundane.
All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other.
The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house.
At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"
The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"
Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while.
He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back.
With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go...? she continued, "It is less painful this way... let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners..."
Five years have since gone by.
He had never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly.
She had left the country and back.
She had married a foreigner and divorced.
He felt anguished that she never waited for him.
In one dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart.
He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.
One day, they finally met.
At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good-byes.
He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.
(b): How are you?
(g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found your missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back... You
know my number... Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye.. Good-bye.
Is it forever not meeting each other again?
One week later, he heard of her death.
She had perished in New York.
In the event that shocked the world.
Midnight.
Once again, he lit his cigarette.
And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart.. He finally knew, she was his missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury.
Most often than not, the outcome(s) could be disastrous and detrimental.
We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones.
And even though we know that we ought to "think twice act wise", it's often easier said than done.
Things happen day by day, which are beyond our control.
Especially at this moment of the century when the most undesirable event is happening at the other end of the world.
Let us treasure every moment of our lives and everyone in our lives.
"Tomorrow never comes; give and take what you have today"
Boy (b): You, of course!
(g): In your heart, what am I to you?
(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
"You are my rib."
In the Bible, it was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve.
Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart.
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a long while.
However, the youthful couple, due to busy schedule of modern life, the never-ending worries of daily problems, began to drift apart and their life became mundane.
All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other.
The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house.
At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"
The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"
Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while.
He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back.
With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go...? she continued, "It is less painful this way... let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners..."
Five years have since gone by.
He had never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly.
She had left the country and back.
She had married a foreigner and divorced.
He felt anguished that she never waited for him.
In one dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart.
He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.
One day, they finally met.
At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good-byes.
He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them.
She smiled at him gently.
(b): How are you?
(g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found your missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back... You
know my number... Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye.. Good-bye.
Is it forever not meeting each other again?
One week later, he heard of her death.
She had perished in New York.
In the event that shocked the world.
Midnight.
Once again, he lit his cigarette.
And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart.. He finally knew, she was his missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury.
Most often than not, the outcome(s) could be disastrous and detrimental.
We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones.
And even though we know that we ought to "think twice act wise", it's often easier said than done.
Things happen day by day, which are beyond our control.
Especially at this moment of the century when the most undesirable event is happening at the other end of the world.
Let us treasure every moment of our lives and everyone in our lives.
"Tomorrow never comes; give and take what you have today"
I am a lazy bride
It is pouring outside now. My mum is complaining that since both of us were free, why dun we go and shop for our bed. I gave her the reason because it is raining outside.
I know that we are suppose to shop for our bed but I hate nagging at my hubby. I knew that he is very lazy to do it too.
By the way, I am suppose to write the rest of my invitation cards and wrapped my christmas presents, but I choose to sit infront of the computer and surf blogs on Blog Explosion.
I am a lazy bride.
I know that we are suppose to shop for our bed but I hate nagging at my hubby. I knew that he is very lazy to do it too.
By the way, I am suppose to write the rest of my invitation cards and wrapped my christmas presents, but I choose to sit infront of the computer and surf blogs on Blog Explosion.
I am a lazy bride.
Invitation cards
I just went to the restaurant to collect my invitation cards. I do it during the office lunch time and when I came back, everybody is asking about it. So on the spot, I wrote their names on the invitation cards and give each one of them one.
Meeting with my evening gown designer
I went to see my evening gown designer yesterday. Our appointment was 5:30pm.
Before I actually reached there, I remind my hubby of the appointment. He called me later and told me that he has got a meeting at 5pm. I was so disappointed but I hide it anyway. He said he will tried to rush down.
By 5:30pm, my hubby was still not around. I decided to see my designer alone. I walked up to his shop and there was around three customers in his tiny shop. There was almost no space for me to walk in. I open the door and it seems that my designer was surprise to see me. He asked me if he was suppose to show me anything. I told him that I was suppose to confirm the design of my evening gown. He looked around and asked if I can give him another half an hour. I happily agreed hoping that my hubby will turn up half an hour later.
While waiting for my hubby arrival, my hubby actually called me half an hour later. He was an hour late for the appointment. We went back to my designer shop at around 7:15, this time there were four customers inside. I managed to squeeze myself inside the shop. My designer assistance was not in too. By the time my designer has finish with one of the customer, he quickly attended to me first. We have a nice short 5 mintue discussion and off we go.
I must said that this short meeting was a pleasant one although the timing was screw up. It is good to bring a friend then to meet a designer alone.
After our appointment, my hubby drive me to meet the tailor that do his suit. Well, his mockup for his suit was ready and he tried it on while the tailor fuss over the details. We stay in his tiny shop for a whole hour before we go for our dinner.
Before I actually reached there, I remind my hubby of the appointment. He called me later and told me that he has got a meeting at 5pm. I was so disappointed but I hide it anyway. He said he will tried to rush down.
By 5:30pm, my hubby was still not around. I decided to see my designer alone. I walked up to his shop and there was around three customers in his tiny shop. There was almost no space for me to walk in. I open the door and it seems that my designer was surprise to see me. He asked me if he was suppose to show me anything. I told him that I was suppose to confirm the design of my evening gown. He looked around and asked if I can give him another half an hour. I happily agreed hoping that my hubby will turn up half an hour later.
While waiting for my hubby arrival, my hubby actually called me half an hour later. He was an hour late for the appointment. We went back to my designer shop at around 7:15, this time there were four customers inside. I managed to squeeze myself inside the shop. My designer assistance was not in too. By the time my designer has finish with one of the customer, he quickly attended to me first. We have a nice short 5 mintue discussion and off we go.
I must said that this short meeting was a pleasant one although the timing was screw up. It is good to bring a friend then to meet a designer alone.
After our appointment, my hubby drive me to meet the tailor that do his suit. Well, his mockup for his suit was ready and he tried it on while the tailor fuss over the details. We stay in his tiny shop for a whole hour before we go for our dinner.
Another touching story: When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she
was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, "suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that 'divorce' was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said.
She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce." I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "why?". "I'm serious." I avoided her question. This so-called
answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "you are not a man!".
At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce
which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found
she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember". "You carried me in your arms", she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce," she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "daddy is holding mummy in his arms." His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The
visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I
nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my
dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I
was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old."
I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious."
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever." She said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."
This was the scene of ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she
was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slight joking way, "suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that 'divorce' was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said.
She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce." I raised a serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "why?". "I'm serious." I avoided her question. This so-called
answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "you are not a man!".
At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce
which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found
she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember". "You carried me in your arms", she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce," she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "daddy is holding mummy in his arms." His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The
visualization of Dew became vaguer.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I
nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.
I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."
She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my
dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I
was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old."
I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious."
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever." She said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."
I postpone my appointment with my evening gown designer
My hubby actually offer to accompany me to see Tan Yoong today, but he is having a fever now. I asked him to go and see a doctor. I will go down to see Tan Yoong today.
However, after I put down the phone, my heart dropped to my stomach. I felt so nervous going to see him alone. What if he turns out the same attitude again. I felt so helpless. I guess partly I am feeling this way is because I am suffering from PMS too. I called my hubby again.
My hubby sugguested I called to change the dates to tomorrow so that he could accompany me to discuss on my evening gown. I felt so helpless and useless. I called and the assistance said that there is an empty slot for us at the same time. I felt so relieve.
Sometimes, I really felt that I wanted my hubby to be beside me. Although I knew that I could do this by myself, I could settle the whole thing, but I still wants him to be around.
However, after I put down the phone, my heart dropped to my stomach. I felt so nervous going to see him alone. What if he turns out the same attitude again. I felt so helpless. I guess partly I am feeling this way is because I am suffering from PMS too. I called my hubby again.
My hubby sugguested I called to change the dates to tomorrow so that he could accompany me to discuss on my evening gown. I felt so helpless and useless. I called and the assistance said that there is an empty slot for us at the same time. I felt so relieve.
Sometimes, I really felt that I wanted my hubby to be beside me. Although I knew that I could do this by myself, I could settle the whole thing, but I still wants him to be around.
How to slim down properly
After reading How to slim down properly, I guess I need to work harder at my daily situp so that my tummy will not appear on my wedding day. I have worked out 50 situp yesterday, but I guess that is not enough.
Today, I have run down the stair, take a bus to the MRT station, climb up four flight of stairs to the train platform, walk from the Mrt station to my office. Tonight when I am going home, I am going to climb up 9 storeys of steps. I hope by doing all that, I will slim down a bit more.
Today, I have run down the stair, take a bus to the MRT station, climb up four flight of stairs to the train platform, walk from the Mrt station to my office. Tonight when I am going home, I am going to climb up 9 storeys of steps. I hope by doing all that, I will slim down a bit more.
Big list of wedding links
I have added a big list of wedding link to the content on your right. Do take a look, I guess it will be useful.
I will be adding more to it whenever I find something.
I will be adding more to it whenever I find something.
Allure Charix again
I went down to Allure Charix again today but this time with my hubby. I guess he can feel I am quite stress over the preparation. However, I did not tell him what happen in details about Tan Yoong.
I tried that piece of gown which I felt ok the other day. Well, my hubby dun really like it. He said that I look very mature in it. He also said that I will look much better in a plain simple one. I guess I can really asked Tan Yoong to design something that is plain and simple. If I have know that my hubby want plain and simple, I will not have approach Tan Yoong. There is no communication between us.
Well, I have tried a few pieces at Allure Charix, some of them were picked by my hubby. There is really not one that I am suitable in except that I realise that I am suitable in low back cutting, I need a collar for my neck and my hubby prefer something simple.
Now I am wondering what is he going to say when he see me in my wedding gown. I hope that he will not say anything.
I tried that piece of gown which I felt ok the other day. Well, my hubby dun really like it. He said that I look very mature in it. He also said that I will look much better in a plain simple one. I guess I can really asked Tan Yoong to design something that is plain and simple. If I have know that my hubby want plain and simple, I will not have approach Tan Yoong. There is no communication between us.
Well, I have tried a few pieces at Allure Charix, some of them were picked by my hubby. There is really not one that I am suitable in except that I realise that I am suitable in low back cutting, I need a collar for my neck and my hubby prefer something simple.
Now I am wondering what is he going to say when he see me in my wedding gown. I hope that he will not say anything.
My hubby weird dream
He told me that on the actual day, we counted the angbows we have collected and realise that it is not enough to cover for the dinner. In order to save cost, he requested the restaurant co-ordinator to serve half a roasted pig to each table.
Well, he was really worried about the money part. I kept telling him that if we stick to our budget, we will have enough.
Well, he was really worried about the money part. I kept telling him that if we stick to our budget, we will have enough.
This is the shoes I have make to measure when we registrate for our marriage, three years ago. I will be wearing this shoe with my wedding gown. Actually I was thinking of making a pair new shoes since I find 1 inch high is a bit too low and the bottom seem to be coming out. I have decided to save cost now, I will wear the shoes again.
My backup
I have posted my last post at a wedding forum and asked for advise. I have receive two very good suggesting on what I should do. Below are the two replies.
"hi cat, yup, i've other advice for u...
if i were in ur shoes, firstly, i will not forfeit the $1128 deposit. It's quite a sum of money! plus u mention u may not hav time to find another EG in such a short time?
2ndly, i'll give him a benefit of a doubt that he has a bad hair day...but by the next appt on wed, i'll be firm that i do not want the layers and that my budget is only $2K; no i will not pay a cent more unless he comes up wif this super drop-dead gorgeous EG then maybe i'll consider topping up more. after all i'm a paying customer and i do deserve to hav wat i wan on my gown!
3rdly, if by wed he is still showing this kind of attitude, i'll tell him nicely that his attitude has change...no need to be harsh to him, but something polite like: "excuse me sir, but are r u unwell or something? i dun mean to be kaypoh or wat, but when i first met u, u we're much more cheerful and helpful to me, but somehow these few days that i met up wif u, u seemed kinda distanced and uptight. if u dun feel well, we can always discuss this when u r ready". this will wake him up i guarantee.
dun worry cat, after all u hav done ur research and hav found him to be nice and reliable, i'm sure u are able to get a beautiful EG at the end. hav fun planning for ur wedding!! i dearly missed my prep days..."
Another reply:
"maybe u wait until the next appointment then see how he is?
who knows, maybe something happened to him tt day...
or he got into one of his "artist's mood swings"
although tt is not an excuse... supposed to be professional...
but maybe give a benefit of doubt this once...
besides, tt's a lot of deposit u have to forfeit... not very worth it
if he persisted with this mannerism & attitude... maybe can try wat dumbger suggested & talk to him
he should be more aware after tt... if he still continues with this nonsense then perhaps u can see if can get back ur deposit & cancel this deal...
bcos u've already make known ur dissatisfaction but he didn't change... so, he has to be changed in meantime, it won't hurt to lookout for other designers...
if things dun work out with the current, u have backup
if things work out, u can just treat it as exposing urself to diff pple's works... then will be more familiar with the styles u like better"
Well, I went to Allure Charix today and look for my backup. The service there was so good and I went on to try 5 of their gowns. They even sugguested to me how my make up should be and what type of hair do will suit the gown that I am trying on. I found my backup but it was an "ok" evening gown. It is make of two materials with full beadings and it cost only $599. I was thinking if my designer do not change his attitude on Wednesday, I will fired him and rush down to Allure Charix to get the evening gown.
I found a way to make my designer serve me properly. I can bring a friend or two and told him that they are getting married next year. In this way, he will not show his attitude. When one of my friend is getting married, she also complained about her designer having bad mood, but when I went with her, she is so nice to her.
"hi cat, yup, i've other advice for u...
if i were in ur shoes, firstly, i will not forfeit the $1128 deposit. It's quite a sum of money! plus u mention u may not hav time to find another EG in such a short time?
2ndly, i'll give him a benefit of a doubt that he has a bad hair day...but by the next appt on wed, i'll be firm that i do not want the layers and that my budget is only $2K; no i will not pay a cent more unless he comes up wif this super drop-dead gorgeous EG then maybe i'll consider topping up more. after all i'm a paying customer and i do deserve to hav wat i wan on my gown!
3rdly, if by wed he is still showing this kind of attitude, i'll tell him nicely that his attitude has change...no need to be harsh to him, but something polite like: "excuse me sir, but are r u unwell or something? i dun mean to be kaypoh or wat, but when i first met u, u we're much more cheerful and helpful to me, but somehow these few days that i met up wif u, u seemed kinda distanced and uptight. if u dun feel well, we can always discuss this when u r ready". this will wake him up i guarantee.
dun worry cat, after all u hav done ur research and hav found him to be nice and reliable, i'm sure u are able to get a beautiful EG at the end. hav fun planning for ur wedding!! i dearly missed my prep days..."
Another reply:
"maybe u wait until the next appointment then see how he is?
who knows, maybe something happened to him tt day...
or he got into one of his "artist's mood swings"
although tt is not an excuse... supposed to be professional...
but maybe give a benefit of doubt this once...
besides, tt's a lot of deposit u have to forfeit... not very worth it
if he persisted with this mannerism & attitude... maybe can try wat dumbger suggested & talk to him
he should be more aware after tt... if he still continues with this nonsense then perhaps u can see if can get back ur deposit & cancel this deal...
bcos u've already make known ur dissatisfaction but he didn't change... so, he has to be changed in meantime, it won't hurt to lookout for other designers...
if things dun work out with the current, u have backup
if things work out, u can just treat it as exposing urself to diff pple's works... then will be more familiar with the styles u like better"
Well, I went to Allure Charix today and look for my backup. The service there was so good and I went on to try 5 of their gowns. They even sugguested to me how my make up should be and what type of hair do will suit the gown that I am trying on. I found my backup but it was an "ok" evening gown. It is make of two materials with full beadings and it cost only $599. I was thinking if my designer do not change his attitude on Wednesday, I will fired him and rush down to Allure Charix to get the evening gown.
I found a way to make my designer serve me properly. I can bring a friend or two and told him that they are getting married next year. In this way, he will not show his attitude. When one of my friend is getting married, she also complained about her designer having bad mood, but when I went with her, she is so nice to her.
Blog Explosion Surfer, I need your HELP!
I got a problem here. Today, I went to see my evening gown designer. He was 15 mintues late for the appointment and I realise that his attitude has changed.
We have previously agreed that my evening gown is going to be layers, but recently I saw so many causal clothing in layers, department store selling layering gowns, person wearing layers clothing on TV and magazine. I want my evening gown to be different. I dun want my guest to wear something similar to my evening gown.
So I called my designer up and make an appointment today. He did not called me up as promise and I cannot wait.
He showed me three scheme of the design he has worked on, two of them are with layers. I told him straight that I am not interested in the layering concept anymore and I wanted him to come out with something else. All these while when I am talking, he was playing with his pins.
He told me that his layering designs were different from what outside is selling. I thought him that I knew that but I just dun want anything similar. When he is talking to me, he was not even looking at me.
I study the three schemes and asked a few question on them. He told me what those scribbles was in designer terms which I got no idea what was that and how it look like. I asked if he got anything like this in his shop and he told me a straight no. He was playing with his pins all this while.
I told him that I got no idea how I will look like in his scribbles, I cannot visualise at all. I pointed to the scheme A design and asked him if I will look good in it. It was a V shape necklines and I know I dun look good in causal wear that has a V neckline. He told me straight that if it is not nice he will not have design it, and he is still playing with his pins.
I told him that I cannot make a decision now and I requested another appointment next week. He has set to see me again on the coming Wednesday and I got to make a firm decision on what I want. As I am leaving the shop, he is still playing with his pins.
Oh yeah, you may asked why I have signed him up when his attitude was so bad. Well, it was not like this when I first meet him. He was a very nice guy at that time and let me try three of his signature gowns. The second time when I visited him to sign up for the evening gown, he was very pleasant too. The worest of all is that there were no bad comments on several forum about him. Everybody said that he was such a nice guy.
Another problem was that I have set for myself a $2000 budget to get a killer gown. When I first visited the designer, I asked him how much was that layered gown and he told me it was $2000. On the second visit, when I signed up with him, I asked him again and he told me it was $2300. I asked him why the increase and he said there was not increase and it has always been like that. I told my ears will playing games with me so I did not bother. I told myself that my wedding is going to be once a lifetime so I dun mind the $300 increase.
Today, what he show me is: scheme A=$2500, scheme B=$2900, scheme C=$2500. For one thing I am sure, I am not going to spend this kind of money on a evening gown (not even a wedding gown in the first place) that I am going to wear for just 2 hours.
Now I need some advise on this. Should I
a) Continue with this designer. Everybody has their bad hair day. You have not been tactful when you told him that you dun want the layer concept. A wedding is once in a lifetime, go ahead to get that killer gown. You have paid a deposit of $1128.
b) Continue with this designer but let him know your budget. You might not get a killer gown but a plain gown instead.
c) Fired him and forget about a killer gown. Look for an off the rack evening gown elsewhere. Your deposit of $1128 will be forfited but you might not be spending as much as $2500. However, you might not find your evening gown in such a short time.
Thank you for reading all this and I really need your view on this. I am so sad when I walked out of his shop. Thank you very much.
We have previously agreed that my evening gown is going to be layers, but recently I saw so many causal clothing in layers, department store selling layering gowns, person wearing layers clothing on TV and magazine. I want my evening gown to be different. I dun want my guest to wear something similar to my evening gown.
So I called my designer up and make an appointment today. He did not called me up as promise and I cannot wait.
He showed me three scheme of the design he has worked on, two of them are with layers. I told him straight that I am not interested in the layering concept anymore and I wanted him to come out with something else. All these while when I am talking, he was playing with his pins.
He told me that his layering designs were different from what outside is selling. I thought him that I knew that but I just dun want anything similar. When he is talking to me, he was not even looking at me.
I study the three schemes and asked a few question on them. He told me what those scribbles was in designer terms which I got no idea what was that and how it look like. I asked if he got anything like this in his shop and he told me a straight no. He was playing with his pins all this while.
I told him that I got no idea how I will look like in his scribbles, I cannot visualise at all. I pointed to the scheme A design and asked him if I will look good in it. It was a V shape necklines and I know I dun look good in causal wear that has a V neckline. He told me straight that if it is not nice he will not have design it, and he is still playing with his pins.
I told him that I cannot make a decision now and I requested another appointment next week. He has set to see me again on the coming Wednesday and I got to make a firm decision on what I want. As I am leaving the shop, he is still playing with his pins.
Oh yeah, you may asked why I have signed him up when his attitude was so bad. Well, it was not like this when I first meet him. He was a very nice guy at that time and let me try three of his signature gowns. The second time when I visited him to sign up for the evening gown, he was very pleasant too. The worest of all is that there were no bad comments on several forum about him. Everybody said that he was such a nice guy.
Another problem was that I have set for myself a $2000 budget to get a killer gown. When I first visited the designer, I asked him how much was that layered gown and he told me it was $2000. On the second visit, when I signed up with him, I asked him again and he told me it was $2300. I asked him why the increase and he said there was not increase and it has always been like that. I told my ears will playing games with me so I did not bother. I told myself that my wedding is going to be once a lifetime so I dun mind the $300 increase.
Today, what he show me is: scheme A=$2500, scheme B=$2900, scheme C=$2500. For one thing I am sure, I am not going to spend this kind of money on a evening gown (not even a wedding gown in the first place) that I am going to wear for just 2 hours.
Now I need some advise on this. Should I
a) Continue with this designer. Everybody has their bad hair day. You have not been tactful when you told him that you dun want the layer concept. A wedding is once in a lifetime, go ahead to get that killer gown. You have paid a deposit of $1128.
b) Continue with this designer but let him know your budget. You might not get a killer gown but a plain gown instead.
c) Fired him and forget about a killer gown. Look for an off the rack evening gown elsewhere. Your deposit of $1128 will be forfited but you might not be spending as much as $2500. However, you might not find your evening gown in such a short time.
Thank you for reading all this and I really need your view on this. I am so sad when I walked out of his shop. Thank you very much.
Weird Dreams
I had a weird dream last night. I was dreaming that on my actual wedding day, my hubby told me that he do not look nice in his suit, so he asked his brother to be my groom. The brother in my dream is a totally different person from his real life brother. I was panic about this but everybody, including my parents and my in-law agreed that his "brother" should be my groom. I was almost crying when my hubby said that it does not matter who will be the groom as long as we are husband and wife in paper. Although the "brother" is very handsome, but whole night, I have been begging my hubby to be my groom.
Haha, you were among the first few lucky people to see my wedding gown if you read my blog today. After seeing some of the pictures my designer has helped me to take, I feel kind of disappointed. My wedding gown did not look as nice as you see the real thing. I realise that I have grow fat in my tummy too.I have actually stop doing my 100 situp per day eversince I fell sick a month ago. I think I need to catch up with my situp before my big day or I will look like this in the picture. Awwwwww!
I have done a lot of things
Hmmm...I have printed out my actual day programme, the one you can find on your right, and pass that to my hubby for his parent's approval. I have also requested my restaurant to fax me the wedding card format and spotted two mistake on them. I have pass one copy to my hubby to get his parent's approval too. I have also give him a list of recruitment of helpers that we need, that list can be found on your right hand corner too. I have printed out the table arrangement for our side for my parent's discussion.
Yesterday, I finally called up my evening gown designer and fix an appointment with him this coming Friday. I have decided to change my design and I need him to come up with a design fast. I will have a heart attack if everything is to be done at last mintue. I got a very busy schedule in December, I have got lots of friends birthday to celebrate and there is Christmas too.
Yesterday, I finally called up my evening gown designer and fix an appointment with him this coming Friday. I have decided to change my design and I need him to come up with a design fast. I will have a heart attack if everything is to be done at last mintue. I got a very busy schedule in December, I have got lots of friends birthday to celebrate and there is Christmas too.
My hubby mood swing
He was all right yesterday, he was all right today until when we were on our way to dinner with his parent. There is something wrong with his car which something it feels like dying it engine, but this has been occuring quite often.
His car feels like dying it engine again. This time, he bang his hand so hard on the steering wheel that my heart beat stop for a second. Then his face turns black all the way through the dinner. My face was black too. I hate to remind myself that I got to marry this man with sudden mood swing in another 1 months, 2 weeks time.
I did not talk to him since he bang his steering wheel. On the way back, he tried to talk to me. He asked me why am I so quiet.
Well, his mum asked me to ask my mum how many can of pig leg she wanted. I got to remember that. She seems to finally know which restaurant are we going to hold our wedding at. My hubby told her that there will be no roasted pig at the table and she said we will have to add that in. I hate her for saying that because in the end, we will be paying for the table, not her. How can she request stuff like that? I really dun understand mother in-law. Even her younger son said that roasted pig got high cholesterol.
His car feels like dying it engine again. This time, he bang his hand so hard on the steering wheel that my heart beat stop for a second. Then his face turns black all the way through the dinner. My face was black too. I hate to remind myself that I got to marry this man with sudden mood swing in another 1 months, 2 weeks time.
I did not talk to him since he bang his steering wheel. On the way back, he tried to talk to me. He asked me why am I so quiet.
Well, his mum asked me to ask my mum how many can of pig leg she wanted. I got to remember that. She seems to finally know which restaurant are we going to hold our wedding at. My hubby told her that there will be no roasted pig at the table and she said we will have to add that in. I hate her for saying that because in the end, we will be paying for the table, not her. How can she request stuff like that? I really dun understand mother in-law. Even her younger son said that roasted pig got high cholesterol.
My 2nd facial
I did my 2nd facial today. We were suppose to bo out with my mother in-law and she will buy some gold for me. However, at the last mintue, something happen and she was unable to turn up. What actually happen was another story.
My hubby do not seem to be very please with me because I have forgotten all about our wedding cards and I have not meet up with my evening gown designer yet. He has already taken his suit measurement and is meeting the same guy next Sunday. His dad has decided to make his suit with the same guy too. Everybody has already begin making their dresses for my wedding and what is the bride doing? Everybody is asking me that.
Well, I will be going to see my wedding gown designer next week and I got to remember to call my evening gown designer on Monday. I think I am going to change my evening gown design because I see layers clothing everywhere. I dun want to wear something that everybody is wearing now for my evening gown.
I have to remember to call the restaurant too and ask that guy to fax my wedding card over. I think my hubby will kill me if I dun do all this.
My hubby do not seem to be very please with me because I have forgotten all about our wedding cards and I have not meet up with my evening gown designer yet. He has already taken his suit measurement and is meeting the same guy next Sunday. His dad has decided to make his suit with the same guy too. Everybody has already begin making their dresses for my wedding and what is the bride doing? Everybody is asking me that.
Well, I will be going to see my wedding gown designer next week and I got to remember to call my evening gown designer on Monday. I think I am going to change my evening gown design because I see layers clothing everywhere. I dun want to wear something that everybody is wearing now for my evening gown.
I have to remember to call the restaurant too and ask that guy to fax my wedding card over. I think my hubby will kill me if I dun do all this.
Gou Da Li
My hubby just called. I asked him if I can go to my new house tomorrow. He plaused and think. I scolded him immediately:" Hey that is my house leh, and I got pay for it also leh! You still plause and think if I can go?"
He immediately said of course I can.
You see, his friends loves to go to our house for manjong session and his brother will bring his friend to our house for manjong session too. One good thing about my new house is that I am not there and there are no "adults" there to disturb them or feel embarrass about.
Anyway, I reminded him that it is time that we get our bed. He said "yah" and asked me to call the furniture shop and said if the bed is in store a not. We have previously saw a bed and we liked but do not have the colour that we wanted and they said that the white colour will arrive in a month time.
Then he go on and tell me that his mum is going to get the "gou da li" stuffs. He also asked me how many "pig leg can" that my mum wants. I told him that his mum should ask my mum during the food tasting. He then said that his mum is going to buy those stuffs on Monday.
I told him that I am not eating expire pig legs. Come on, my wedding is 1 month, dunno how many weeks and she is going to get the "pig leg can" now? *fainted*
He immediately said of course I can.
You see, his friends loves to go to our house for manjong session and his brother will bring his friend to our house for manjong session too. One good thing about my new house is that I am not there and there are no "adults" there to disturb them or feel embarrass about.
Anyway, I reminded him that it is time that we get our bed. He said "yah" and asked me to call the furniture shop and said if the bed is in store a not. We have previously saw a bed and we liked but do not have the colour that we wanted and they said that the white colour will arrive in a month time.
Then he go on and tell me that his mum is going to get the "gou da li" stuffs. He also asked me how many "pig leg can" that my mum wants. I told him that his mum should ask my mum during the food tasting. He then said that his mum is going to buy those stuffs on Monday.
I told him that I am not eating expire pig legs. Come on, my wedding is 1 month, dunno how many weeks and she is going to get the "pig leg can" now? *fainted*
Free Download
I have put a permanent links on my side content for my actual days schedule and helper list. I will add more infos in future if I got more to share. Do feel free to download.
Groom Suit
My hubby just called and told me that he has paid the deposite to make his own suit. Wow, that was kind of fast. He said he found one that make wedding suit in Ang Mo Kio, on his way to cut his hair. That guy will charge him a total of $500++, but I forgot to ask him if that include the shirt inside.
Free download of Actual Day schedule and helper list
I have always wanted to share these. Actual Day Schedule and Helper list. I dunno if I host the files in geocities, will readers be able to download them here. Well, I am giving these two files a try, if it is successful, I will put them in the side content when I am free.
Maybe you want to sugguest to me a better way of hosting my files here to share?
Maybe you want to sugguest to me a better way of hosting my files here to share?
Ways of doing up your hair
Somebody in a wedding forum site introduced this site to me. It has lot of ways you can do up your hair to match your gown. I am not a hair person and I guess I just have to leave my hair with my make-up artist and pray hard that it turns out nice.
My mum and my sis are already shopping for their clothes to wear on my wedding day and my own designers have not call me yet. I went shopping with my mum and sis today and realised that there were a lot of layers gown all over the place. I guess my evening gown design is begining to appear everywhere. I was thinking, should I change the design of my evening gown? I know I will not like it if I saw one of my guest wearing a layered dress.
I kind of regreted signing up with Tan Yoong as till today, I still find him a bit too expensive. I should really have went down to AC first and if I cannot find a gown that I like then I sign him on. I kept trying to tell myself that since I have signed up with him, why not enjoy the "high class" gown on the wedding day and stopped thinking about the money spend. Anyway, you are going to sell your evening gown after your wedding.
I did not find anybody selling any evening gown that is costing $1000 and above. I dunno if it is a good idea to post my evening gown on ebay or yahoo. Maybe I should give them each a chance before selling my evening gown in the forum. I was wondering if I price it at $1300, will anybody buy it from me. I really hope to get the money back.
My mum and my sis are already shopping for their clothes to wear on my wedding day and my own designers have not call me yet. I went shopping with my mum and sis today and realised that there were a lot of layers gown all over the place. I guess my evening gown design is begining to appear everywhere. I was thinking, should I change the design of my evening gown? I know I will not like it if I saw one of my guest wearing a layered dress.
I kind of regreted signing up with Tan Yoong as till today, I still find him a bit too expensive. I should really have went down to AC first and if I cannot find a gown that I like then I sign him on. I kept trying to tell myself that since I have signed up with him, why not enjoy the "high class" gown on the wedding day and stopped thinking about the money spend. Anyway, you are going to sell your evening gown after your wedding.
I did not find anybody selling any evening gown that is costing $1000 and above. I dunno if it is a good idea to post my evening gown on ebay or yahoo. Maybe I should give them each a chance before selling my evening gown in the forum. I was wondering if I price it at $1300, will anybody buy it from me. I really hope to get the money back.
My friend's wedding is my nightmare.
A week before she wedded, I fell sick, fever on tuesday & wednesday, headache on Thursday and a running nose today. Tomorrow I am going to go to her house as early as 7am, helping her to take video of the actual event. At around 1:30pm, I have to go down to the restaurant to decorate her staircase before I can go home.
My other friend, L, called me just now. She asked me if I am willing to be her flower girl during the match in. She told me that I will have to match in with her, in front and throw the flowers petals on the ground. I said that I am 170cm tall wearing a two inch high shoe. She will be totally cover up if I will to walk in front of her. So our conclusion is that we will asked her to drop the idea.
My friend, Y, that is going to be the bride this sat also sms me if I can help her with the burning of her CD songs. I am not sure if my dad computer is working a not so I give all kind of excuse. L called me and mentioned about this. I explained to her. I felt very bad not helping her but the stress of helping her is too much for me to bear. What if I cannot produce the music she wants for her tomorrow wedding?
I am so tired now, I wished I can go home and sleep now.
My other friend, L, called me just now. She asked me if I am willing to be her flower girl during the match in. She told me that I will have to match in with her, in front and throw the flowers petals on the ground. I said that I am 170cm tall wearing a two inch high shoe. She will be totally cover up if I will to walk in front of her. So our conclusion is that we will asked her to drop the idea.
My friend, Y, that is going to be the bride this sat also sms me if I can help her with the burning of her CD songs. I am not sure if my dad computer is working a not so I give all kind of excuse. L called me and mentioned about this. I explained to her. I felt very bad not helping her but the stress of helping her is too much for me to bear. What if I cannot produce the music she wants for her tomorrow wedding?
I am so tired now, I wished I can go home and sleep now.
True story... very sad...
A police officer had a beautiful daughter, who fell in love with a boy who was an ordinary poor person. When the gals father came to know about their love, he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it. Now it happened that the two lovers left their homes for a happy future. The gals father started searching for the two lovers but they could not find them.
At last, he accepted their love and asked them in a newspaper to come back. her father said that if u both come back i will marry u wit the guy u luv, I accept that u loved each other truly. So in this way their love won and the age old attitude of the tribe took a beating.
The couple went to the city to shop for the wedding. He was wearing a white traditional dress, and was crossing the road when a car came and hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses. After a long time she recovered and accepted that her love has died.
One night she was sleeping in her home with her family. Her mother had a dream in which she saw a fairy. That fairy asked her mother to wash the blood spots of the guy from her daughter's clothes as soon as possible.
But her mother ignored the dream. Next night the father saw the same dream, he also ignored it. Then when the girl had the same dream the next night,she woke up and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes on which there were blood spots.
She washed the spots but some remained. Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the spots but some still remained.
Next night she again had the same dream and this time that fairy gave her last warning to wash the blood spots, else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the spots, the clothes tore, but some spots still remained.
In the evening on same day when she was alone, someone knocked the door, when she opened the door she saw the fairy at the door. She got very scared and fainted. The fairy woke her up..., and gave her an object, That awe- struck girl asked "what is this..?
The fairy replied "..... Try Dynamo Liquid Soap... juz a dap & it will remove all stubborn stain ....."
I know what u all are feeling now... But don't look for me...
I'm also searching for the person who mailed this to me...
:)hahaha..sorry
At last, he accepted their love and asked them in a newspaper to come back. her father said that if u both come back i will marry u wit the guy u luv, I accept that u loved each other truly. So in this way their love won and the age old attitude of the tribe took a beating.
The couple went to the city to shop for the wedding. He was wearing a white traditional dress, and was crossing the road when a car came and hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses. After a long time she recovered and accepted that her love has died.
One night she was sleeping in her home with her family. Her mother had a dream in which she saw a fairy. That fairy asked her mother to wash the blood spots of the guy from her daughter's clothes as soon as possible.
But her mother ignored the dream. Next night the father saw the same dream, he also ignored it. Then when the girl had the same dream the next night,she woke up and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes on which there were blood spots.
She washed the spots but some remained. Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the spots but some still remained.
Next night she again had the same dream and this time that fairy gave her last warning to wash the blood spots, else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the spots, the clothes tore, but some spots still remained.
In the evening on same day when she was alone, someone knocked the door, when she opened the door she saw the fairy at the door. She got very scared and fainted. The fairy woke her up..., and gave her an object, That awe- struck girl asked "what is this..?
The fairy replied "..... Try Dynamo Liquid Soap... juz a dap & it will remove all stubborn stain ....."
I know what u all are feeling now... But don't look for me...
I'm also searching for the person who mailed this to me...
:)hahaha..sorry
A sneak preview of my evening gown
This is a sneak preview of my evening gown. It is layered with a very soft piece of cloth inside. It is very comfortable when wearing and it does not show your tummy.
Yesterday, my brother in-law
sended me some of his excel files he used during his wedding. It was very detail and was very helpful. It also makes me nervous.
The list include the programme for the wedding day, guest list, things to do, things to pack, helpers list, vehicles arrangement, etc.
I think we are going to do a lot of things last minute. There are a lot of things that I cannot decided for myself and I need to discuss with my in-law and with my hubby. However I got a super busy hubby, I dunno how am I going to handle all those stuffs or will he care at all. I was thinking about it last night and was not able to fall asleep again.
Well, I think I just have to let things be, I just hope that when the last minutes arrive, my hubby will be more kan cheong than me. I am getting tired of being the one that remind him all the time.
By the way, our restaurant remind us two weeks ago that we got to fill in the invitation card form so that they can print our invitation card. Our co-ordinator actually gave us two weeks to do it. Till today, my hubby has not got his parent's chinese name yet. If our restaurant decided not to print our wedding cards, I will ask my hubby to fork out his own money and find his own printer. I am not going to care.
I can understand why my friend complained to me that she quarrel with her hubby almost everyday since they decided to get married. It is always the gals that do the homework and tried to complete each task on time. The guys will just sit there and laugh at us for being kan cheong. I am so sick of the guys.
The list include the programme for the wedding day, guest list, things to do, things to pack, helpers list, vehicles arrangement, etc.
I think we are going to do a lot of things last minute. There are a lot of things that I cannot decided for myself and I need to discuss with my in-law and with my hubby. However I got a super busy hubby, I dunno how am I going to handle all those stuffs or will he care at all. I was thinking about it last night and was not able to fall asleep again.
Well, I think I just have to let things be, I just hope that when the last minutes arrive, my hubby will be more kan cheong than me. I am getting tired of being the one that remind him all the time.
By the way, our restaurant remind us two weeks ago that we got to fill in the invitation card form so that they can print our invitation card. Our co-ordinator actually gave us two weeks to do it. Till today, my hubby has not got his parent's chinese name yet. If our restaurant decided not to print our wedding cards, I will ask my hubby to fork out his own money and find his own printer. I am not going to care.
I can understand why my friend complained to me that she quarrel with her hubby almost everyday since they decided to get married. It is always the gals that do the homework and tried to complete each task on time. The guys will just sit there and laugh at us for being kan cheong. I am so sick of the guys.
Actually, I have some reserve on my evening gown being grey colour. I have been thinking if it will turn out nice and will people accepted my evening gown to be in grey colour. However, last night I got a dream. I saw myself wearing the grey colour evening gown to the exact design that I have told my designer. It was awesome. Today, I have more confidence. I think I want my evening gown to remain as grey.
I think for the evening gown, I am still blaming myself for overspending on it. However, I dun think I will change my designer mind on what I wanted. I am very bad and kept telling myself that my hubby will be the one paying for it, I felt so bad about it.
I have read that other people evening gown were costing them only $350. Comparing to mine which cost $2300, I think I really have overspend on my evening gown. I think I will changed into my evening gown almost immediately after the first dish. I wanted to display it as much as possible. I wanted to take as much pictures as possible making it worth.
I just sit down and talk to my mum on some of the details of my wedding. I also updated my to do list for each month. The thing that I have not come out with is the helper list, actual day events list, and the table sitting list. I think I will put a link here in this blog for people to download my list if they wanted to use them.
I think for the evening gown, I am still blaming myself for overspending on it. However, I dun think I will change my designer mind on what I wanted. I am very bad and kept telling myself that my hubby will be the one paying for it, I felt so bad about it.
I have read that other people evening gown were costing them only $350. Comparing to mine which cost $2300, I think I really have overspend on my evening gown. I think I will changed into my evening gown almost immediately after the first dish. I wanted to display it as much as possible. I wanted to take as much pictures as possible making it worth.
I just sit down and talk to my mum on some of the details of my wedding. I also updated my to do list for each month. The thing that I have not come out with is the helper list, actual day events list, and the table sitting list. I think I will put a link here in this blog for people to download my list if they wanted to use them.
My hubby knew that I was sad...
I guess he knew what was wrong. He did not apology to me neither did he talk about it. He called me while I was trying to sleep and asked me to said that three words to him. I told him I wanted to sleep.
Today, everything was all right again. He called me after my dinner and tell me things about my cats and what he ate today. I was trying to watch the TV at the same time not to let him know that I was watching the TV. Soon, he sense that I seems to be busy with something.
Today, everything was all right again. He called me after my dinner and tell me things about my cats and what he ate today. I was trying to watch the TV at the same time not to let him know that I was watching the TV. Soon, he sense that I seems to be busy with something.
I was kind of sad yesterday
because one of my cat urine at the main door. As I clean up the place before leaving, my hubby was watching me and asking me which one did it. After I have clean up the place and we were about to leave the house, my hubby wear his dirty shoe inside the house dirting the spot where I just clean up. I almost scream at him and you know what he said? He said well the floor is wet that is why his shoes make the dirty marks on the floor!
The reasons he gave me seem like it is not his fault that he dirty the floor. It is the fault of the floor being wet. He do not make any effort in keeping the house clean. The reason he always gave is that he was always too busy or tired from work. It seems that it is my duty to do all the cleaning in the house.
I kept quiet on my way back. I dun feel like getting married to this person anymore. It is funny why I feel like cooking for him in the evening and suddenly I dun feel like talking to him at night. I knew he can feel that I am angry and was feeling sad, but he do nothing.
I cannot sleep at night. I being to fear for the days staying with him. I will be his full time free maid and he will bear no respect for me.
I hope I am thinking too much.
The reasons he gave me seem like it is not his fault that he dirty the floor. It is the fault of the floor being wet. He do not make any effort in keeping the house clean. The reason he always gave is that he was always too busy or tired from work. It seems that it is my duty to do all the cleaning in the house.
I kept quiet on my way back. I dun feel like getting married to this person anymore. It is funny why I feel like cooking for him in the evening and suddenly I dun feel like talking to him at night. I knew he can feel that I am angry and was feeling sad, but he do nothing.
I cannot sleep at night. I being to fear for the days staying with him. I will be his full time free maid and he will bear no respect for me.
I hope I am thinking too much.
Something funny
Yes, I'll marry you, my dear,
And here's the reason why;
So I can push you out of bed
When the baby starts to cry,
And if we hear a knocking
And it's creepy and it's late,
I hand you the torch you see,
And you investigate.
Yes I'll marry you, my dear,
You may not apprehend it,
But when the tumble-drier goes
It's you that has to mend it,
You have to face the neighbour
Should our labrador attack him,
And if a drunkard fondles me
It's you that has to whack him.
Yes, I'll marry you,
You're virile and you're lean,
My house is like a pigsty
You can help to keep it clean.
That sexy little dinner
Which you served by candlelight,
As I do chipolatas,
You can cook it every night!
It's you who has to work the drill
and put up curtain track,
And when I've got PMT
it's you who gets the flak,
I do see great advantages,
But none of them for you,
And so before you see the light,
I do, I do, I do!
I can almost see my hubby laughing and clapping when I read this. I could hear him singing:
Yes, I'll marry you, my dear,
And here's the reason why;
You will be the one bearing my kids
and they will carry my surname.
You're virile and you're lean,
My house is like a pigsty
You can help to keep it clean.
My clothes need washing and ironing,
You will be the one doing it for free.
I do see great advantages,
But none of them for you,
And so before you see the light,
I do, I do, I do!
Well, I will be singing to him:
You will go out and work,
to earn the money for me to spend.
Muahahahahaha!
And here's the reason why;
So I can push you out of bed
When the baby starts to cry,
And if we hear a knocking
And it's creepy and it's late,
I hand you the torch you see,
And you investigate.
Yes I'll marry you, my dear,
You may not apprehend it,
But when the tumble-drier goes
It's you that has to mend it,
You have to face the neighbour
Should our labrador attack him,
And if a drunkard fondles me
It's you that has to whack him.
Yes, I'll marry you,
You're virile and you're lean,
My house is like a pigsty
You can help to keep it clean.
That sexy little dinner
Which you served by candlelight,
As I do chipolatas,
You can cook it every night!
It's you who has to work the drill
and put up curtain track,
And when I've got PMT
it's you who gets the flak,
I do see great advantages,
But none of them for you,
And so before you see the light,
I do, I do, I do!
I can almost see my hubby laughing and clapping when I read this. I could hear him singing:
Yes, I'll marry you, my dear,
And here's the reason why;
You will be the one bearing my kids
and they will carry my surname.
You're virile and you're lean,
My house is like a pigsty
You can help to keep it clean.
My clothes need washing and ironing,
You will be the one doing it for free.
I do see great advantages,
But none of them for you,
And so before you see the light,
I do, I do, I do!
Well, I will be singing to him:
You will go out and work,
to earn the money for me to spend.
Muahahahahaha!
I have signed up with Tan Yoong
and left his shop feeling a hole burned in my pocket. He charged me $1880 for an evening gown and with the design I wanted, the gown will be $2300. It is more expensive than the prices he first give me when I first visited him. I have no choice because I have already make the decision to sign up with him. My hubby called me after I left the shop. I told him that I have exceed our budget and quickly told him I will pay the excess. I am heart broken with the money.
Well, I got my nice gown...
Actually I got a good deal for my wedding gown. Usually, bridal shops will charge a make-to-measure price for a piece of off-the-rack gown if nobody except a model wear that before. However, I think since the gown I have selected is left on the shelves for almost one and a half year, Shirey charged me only $700.
Come to think of it, I will have to try to sell my evening gown at $1300 if I want to keep my budget. I dunno if ebay is a better place to get a better price a not. I have to check if gowns in US were more expensive than those in Singapore.
Well, I got my nice gown...
Actually I got a good deal for my wedding gown. Usually, bridal shops will charge a make-to-measure price for a piece of off-the-rack gown if nobody except a model wear that before. However, I think since the gown I have selected is left on the shelves for almost one and a half year, Shirey charged me only $700.
Come to think of it, I will have to try to sell my evening gown at $1300 if I want to keep my budget. I dunno if ebay is a better place to get a better price a not. I have to check if gowns in US were more expensive than those in Singapore.
Throw away serious stuffs and think about something
Women are like apples on trees: the best ones are at the top of the tree.
Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.......
So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right man to come along - the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Share this with others who are good apples - even those who have already been picked!
And remember... Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with!
We can do no great things, Only small things with great Love.
Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.......
So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right man to come along - the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Share this with others who are good apples - even those who have already been picked!
And remember... Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with!
We can do no great things, Only small things with great Love.
I have reread all my blogs here except
the jokes blogs and I have come to a conclusion. My hubby is a bad temper man. Now I am worried how am I going to live through it. Maybe after the wedding, I might have to start another blog. I have the intention to start a baby blog that everybody I only will read them. I think I need another blog like this one where nobody I know will read them.
Hmmmm... what shall I call it? Or shall I just write them in my daily craps blog?
Hmmmm... what shall I call it? Or shall I just write them in my daily craps blog?
I have brought my mum to spotlight today
because I wanted her to see the type of sleep wear I wanted. I dunno where the tradition comes from but I need to wear a new sleep wear during the make up session during the actual day. This sleep wear will have to be from my mum to me as a gift. I remember the ugly sleep wear my sis used to wear in her wedding. This time I wanted to let my mum know exactly what I wanted.
I wanted a satin sleep wear with cats print on it. It must be a 2 piece wear too. My mum thinks that I am crazy. I wanted her to sew it for me as a gift but she wanted to just buy it for me. I brought her to spotlight in Tampines today and found the exact print that I want. I was screaming with joy. However my mum still insist that she do not want to sew, she wants to buy one for me. She also said that the fabric in spotlight is too expensive to even consider about it. I was so sad.
My mum told me that Bugis might have what I want. I ofter that I will buy the material and she do the sewing. She is still not interested. I guess I will have to just accept any sleep wear she give to me and dump it into the store room after that (I dun use sleep wear). I do not wish to fight with her over a sleep wear.
Come to think of it, maybe I can just buy the material and get somebody to sew for me outside.
I wanted a satin sleep wear with cats print on it. It must be a 2 piece wear too. My mum thinks that I am crazy. I wanted her to sew it for me as a gift but she wanted to just buy it for me. I brought her to spotlight in Tampines today and found the exact print that I want. I was screaming with joy. However my mum still insist that she do not want to sew, she wants to buy one for me. She also said that the fabric in spotlight is too expensive to even consider about it. I was so sad.
My mum told me that Bugis might have what I want. I ofter that I will buy the material and she do the sewing. She is still not interested. I guess I will have to just accept any sleep wear she give to me and dump it into the store room after that (I dun use sleep wear). I do not wish to fight with her over a sleep wear.
Come to think of it, maybe I can just buy the material and get somebody to sew for me outside.
I have signed up with Poppy.
I manage to find Linda and asked her if flowers need to be sign up. She looked at me as if I am from outer space and said :"Yes of course". So I signed up with her immediately. I think she still have some lunch in her mouth when I disturb her at lunch time. She is so near to me, it makes me feel very funny to make an appointment with her.
I have also make an appointment with Tan Yoong and I will be visiting him next Tuesday to sign up with him. After that, I think most important taskes are settled.
I have put up a little picture above my blog which I find it very cute and gives me creepys too. I did not realise that I have only 3 months, 2 weeks and 1 day to my wedding day. I got a lots of things I need to do.
I have also make an appointment with Tan Yoong and I will be visiting him next Tuesday to sign up with him. After that, I think most important taskes are settled.
I have put up a little picture above my blog which I find it very cute and gives me creepys too. I did not realise that I have only 3 months, 2 weeks and 1 day to my wedding day. I got a lots of things I need to do.
I have signed up with...
Chris Ling! for AD photography. I am engaging John Lim actually, Chris Ling do not do AD. I have also signed up with Flamingo for her OTR gown and make-up. Flamingo actually charged $700 for the OTR gown and she said that it is actually a first hand gown and nobody has wear that before except a model for photo shooting.
I need to make an appointment with Tan Yoong now and sign up with him for the EG. I was wondering at the same time if poppy need me to book them first a not. Everytime I go down to their shop, it seems that Linda is too busy.
I need to make an appointment with Tan Yoong now and sign up with him for the EG. I was wondering at the same time if poppy need me to book them first a not. Everytime I go down to their shop, it seems that Linda is too busy.
I went to see Tan Yoong today.
Remember two beautiful pictures I posted a long time ago? I went to see the designer today. He let me try on three of the gowns and I fell in love with one. The problem is that it is so expensive.
That gown I tried on, if Tan Yoong will to MTM into my evening gown, it will cost me $2000. When I told William that, he got a shock of his life. I did not tell my mum the price but she said if it is expensive, then look for another one lor!
Maybe I can sell my Tan Yoong Evening gown for $1000 and forget about the Photo shooting for $1200. Then I will still be within my budget.
That gown I tried on, if Tan Yoong will to MTM into my evening gown, it will cost me $2000. When I told William that, he got a shock of his life. I did not tell my mum the price but she said if it is expensive, then look for another one lor!
Maybe I can sell my Tan Yoong Evening gown for $1000 and forget about the Photo shooting for $1200. Then I will still be within my budget.
I feel so guilty that I did not post for a long time.
Quite a few things happened. Have I written that I booked my restaurant? I think I have.
I have visited Flamingo, found a nice gown and verbally confirm that Shirey will be making my WG & EG. She quoted me $1000 for the rental of the WG and $800 for making a new EG.
I have also went to Chris Ling with my friends, Kelvin introduce John Lim AD package to me. It is a 30 pages album in forgotten what size, with all the collages and all photos return. The price is $1980.
Then I saw their promotion on the website, $1200 for photo shooting by Chris Ling and Kelvin. I dun know what do they mean by Kelvin and Chris Ling, both of them do the shooting or a typo error?
Anyway, I think I will go down to their studio again maybe on Friday.
I will be going down to Tan Yoong tomorrow and check out some OTR gowns or EG, and their prices too.
Oh, I have visited Poppy, first visit, Linda assistance quote me $250 for the deco of the wedding car. Second visit, Linda quote me min $350. I think I will use them for the deco of the wedding car.
I think I will DIY my own hand flowers.
Make up Artist: I still dunno should I let Shirey do the make up a not. If I will to engage one, it will mean that the MUA will have to do my photoshooting if I have one, day and night during the AD, and a trial. I think it is going to be expensive.
Another question will be, if I found my EG in Tan Yoong or I let him do, can I just ask Shirey to do my make up and rent a WG from her? I dunno if she agrees a not.
I have visited Flamingo, found a nice gown and verbally confirm that Shirey will be making my WG & EG. She quoted me $1000 for the rental of the WG and $800 for making a new EG.
I have also went to Chris Ling with my friends, Kelvin introduce John Lim AD package to me. It is a 30 pages album in forgotten what size, with all the collages and all photos return. The price is $1980.
Then I saw their promotion on the website, $1200 for photo shooting by Chris Ling and Kelvin. I dun know what do they mean by Kelvin and Chris Ling, both of them do the shooting or a typo error?
Anyway, I think I will go down to their studio again maybe on Friday.
I will be going down to Tan Yoong tomorrow and check out some OTR gowns or EG, and their prices too.
Oh, I have visited Poppy, first visit, Linda assistance quote me $250 for the deco of the wedding car. Second visit, Linda quote me min $350. I think I will use them for the deco of the wedding car.
I think I will DIY my own hand flowers.
Make up Artist: I still dunno should I let Shirey do the make up a not. If I will to engage one, it will mean that the MUA will have to do my photoshooting if I have one, day and night during the AD, and a trial. I think it is going to be expensive.
Another question will be, if I found my EG in Tan Yoong or I let him do, can I just ask Shirey to do my make up and rent a WG from her? I dunno if she agrees a not.
I have booked the restaurant finally
I went to the restaurant with my mum and we were traped in the hotel lift. I have signed with the manager and he told me that he need two signature. I called my hubby and told him that and he questioned me why do they need two signature.
To cut the story short, this is what I have written in one forum:
Before booking that restaurant, I called so many places and they are fully booked. One restaurant even lecture me that I should have called them at least half a year ago. I went to bridal shop also kanna eye big big from them. Somemore I go to these places myself (my hubby not free). When I present these info to my hubby, he asked if I am too eager to get married. Arggggh. I actually went down to the restaurant to book it myself. The restaurant manager told me that that need two person signature and their IC. I called my hubby and told him that. Since he is too busy to go down, he questioned me why do they need two people to sign. He kept asking me to call the manager and asked him why one person sign cannot, then he ask me to ask my friend if they need two person to sign a not. I got so angry that I tell him to ask the manager himself. Yesterday, he manage to go to the restaurant and ask. The manager give him some crap answer and he accepted. We took the forms to the hotel to book our room, they also need two person to sign and our IC. He never ask why. See! I told him that I am not going to book anything anymore without him around. Yesterday I was so angry that I kept thinking why am I married to this a**h*le.
Well, I have calmed down and asked him when will he be free. He said after the chinese 7th month, he will be free. I have decided not to do anything for this period and wait until he is free before going for AD photography hunting again.
To cut the story short, this is what I have written in one forum:
Before booking that restaurant, I called so many places and they are fully booked. One restaurant even lecture me that I should have called them at least half a year ago. I went to bridal shop also kanna eye big big from them. Somemore I go to these places myself (my hubby not free). When I present these info to my hubby, he asked if I am too eager to get married. Arggggh. I actually went down to the restaurant to book it myself. The restaurant manager told me that that need two person signature and their IC. I called my hubby and told him that. Since he is too busy to go down, he questioned me why do they need two people to sign. He kept asking me to call the manager and asked him why one person sign cannot, then he ask me to ask my friend if they need two person to sign a not. I got so angry that I tell him to ask the manager himself. Yesterday, he manage to go to the restaurant and ask. The manager give him some crap answer and he accepted. We took the forms to the hotel to book our room, they also need two person to sign and our IC. He never ask why. See! I told him that I am not going to book anything anymore without him around. Yesterday I was so angry that I kept thinking why am I married to this a**h*le.
Well, I have calmed down and asked him when will he be free. He said after the chinese 7th month, he will be free. I have decided not to do anything for this period and wait until he is free before going for AD photography hunting again.
I have called ?? restaurant today
and got my list of restaurant to visit, hopeful tonight. My hubby is working now and he is going back to rest first because he has got a headache.
My friend helped me to call some of them and I am kind of grateful to her. I told her and another friend that I might be getting married this December. I told them that I was clueless on how to get my WG & EG. However, today I told my Y friend that I might just engage her designer to do the gown for me. She hinted to me that her hairdo was not very good. So I was thinking should I get my own make-up artist instead.
I look at The Pond website again today and was kind of not confident on my decision. We got no time for Photoshooting anyway. So I think when the day is fix, I better go down to their studio and have a look.
My friend helped me to call some of them and I am kind of grateful to her. I told her and another friend that I might be getting married this December. I told them that I was clueless on how to get my WG & EG. However, today I told my Y friend that I might just engage her designer to do the gown for me. She hinted to me that her hairdo was not very good. So I was thinking should I get my own make-up artist instead.
I look at The Pond website again today and was kind of not confident on my decision. We got no time for Photoshooting anyway. So I think when the day is fix, I better go down to their studio and have a look.
I have called three restaurant...
during lunch time. Two are fully booked and there is still dates for one of them. I think we will go down to that restaurant one day to check it out when my hubby is free. However, we got to do it fast.
My hubby was very stress today
yet he felt guilty because I told him that I have got something to discuss with him and he has no time for me for two days.
I told him my plans on the DIY and AD photography. Upon listened to my planning, he flare up and begin reasoning. He asked me what happen if the AD photograper make a mistake with out photo and we cannot just do the wedding again. What if his relative start fighting in the middle of our dinner.
Then he begin to tell me his work stress. He told me that he do not want me to cut cost on our wedding. He said that if I wanted designer gowns, famous photographer or switzenland for our honeymoon, go ahead and plan. He said all I need is to tell him how much and give him some time and he will give me the money.
I think he has gone bonker. I told him that I am not helping him to cut cost. Instead I am trying to make everything worth the price that I am paying for. I tried to tell him that the omition of the Photoshoot is not trying to cut cost. I am trying to make my wedding album more meaningful instead of just posing behind a beautiful background. I am trying to tell him that the photoshooting session which everybody practice now is meaningless and is not worth paying the price and time for it. Moreover, if we really have to do the photoshooting, I will have not time for the gowns. He do not seems to let it. Arggggh!
Inside my heart I was thinking. Even if he wants me to have my dream wedding, I do not want to see him work so hard for the money, and spend it on a one day event and three months later, everybody forgot what I have wear. It is just not worth it. He thought otherwise. He told me that his uncle wife is now blaming his husband for not taking a photpshooting during their wedding. He do not want me to blame him later.
I kept crying for the whole conversation and I can see that he felt very stress when I cried. Stupid me! I just lost control with my eyes when I got emotional. Sometime, I wish I could drain out all my tears in my eyes and never to cry again. I hate to cry because it makes me feel weak.
I told him my plans on the DIY and AD photography. Upon listened to my planning, he flare up and begin reasoning. He asked me what happen if the AD photograper make a mistake with out photo and we cannot just do the wedding again. What if his relative start fighting in the middle of our dinner.
Then he begin to tell me his work stress. He told me that he do not want me to cut cost on our wedding. He said that if I wanted designer gowns, famous photographer or switzenland for our honeymoon, go ahead and plan. He said all I need is to tell him how much and give him some time and he will give me the money.
I think he has gone bonker. I told him that I am not helping him to cut cost. Instead I am trying to make everything worth the price that I am paying for. I tried to tell him that the omition of the Photoshoot is not trying to cut cost. I am trying to make my wedding album more meaningful instead of just posing behind a beautiful background. I am trying to tell him that the photoshooting session which everybody practice now is meaningless and is not worth paying the price and time for it. Moreover, if we really have to do the photoshooting, I will have not time for the gowns. He do not seems to let it. Arggggh!
Inside my heart I was thinking. Even if he wants me to have my dream wedding, I do not want to see him work so hard for the money, and spend it on a one day event and three months later, everybody forgot what I have wear. It is just not worth it. He thought otherwise. He told me that his uncle wife is now blaming his husband for not taking a photpshooting during their wedding. He do not want me to blame him later.
I kept crying for the whole conversation and I can see that he felt very stress when I cried. Stupid me! I just lost control with my eyes when I got emotional. Sometime, I wish I could drain out all my tears in my eyes and never to cry again. I hate to cry because it makes me feel weak.
I was thinking...
maybe I should not sign up with any bridal shop. I like the idea to DIY the whole wedding myself.
To make thing simple, I might not go for Photo shooting if my hubby agreed. I have asked my mum and she agreed. I hope my hubby agrees too.
Without the photo shooting I have more time to look for my WG & EG. What I need is an make up artist who only need to appear twice on my wedding day (morning and evening) and a professional photographer for a whole day. I only need to pay for the photographer and DIY my own album later. This way, I save on on bouquet of flowers, one session of make up, time, money. What I gain will be all the negatives from the photos, I can redevelop them if I want to, professional photographer on my actual day and my hubby will not complain that he do not like to take photo or take up one day of his working time for photo shooting. However, there will be something disadvantage. My guests will not be able to see any wedding photo on my wedding day.
I hope my in-law will not disagreed. Ok, maybe I should start figuring out how to make my own album.
To make thing simple, I might not go for Photo shooting if my hubby agreed. I have asked my mum and she agreed. I hope my hubby agrees too.
Without the photo shooting I have more time to look for my WG & EG. What I need is an make up artist who only need to appear twice on my wedding day (morning and evening) and a professional photographer for a whole day. I only need to pay for the photographer and DIY my own album later. This way, I save on on bouquet of flowers, one session of make up, time, money. What I gain will be all the negatives from the photos, I can redevelop them if I want to, professional photographer on my actual day and my hubby will not complain that he do not like to take photo or take up one day of his working time for photo shooting. However, there will be something disadvantage. My guests will not be able to see any wedding photo on my wedding day.
I hope my in-law will not disagreed. Ok, maybe I should start figuring out how to make my own album.
Today is National Day.
We have our first sit down discussion together. I mean my parents, my brother (I dunno what is he doing there), My sis and her husband and their baby, My hubby parents, my hubby auntie and one of the auntie's kid (I also dunno what is she doing there).
It is good that they sit down and talk, at least they know what my parents want and my parent know what is expected. My parents wanted everything to be simple and my hubby parents seem to have more ideas and patterns. My hubby's dad kept quiet most of the time. I think it is good that my sis family is around too. My brother-in-law did talk a bit on their own wedding.
After the whole thing, my hubby called me again. He said that his mum called him and told him that she miss out some of the things. He said that he also scolded his mum for making things difficult. He also said that our family got no problem but the problem lies on his mum. She is too excited.
Anyway, I told my hubby not to stress himself too much as these were unneccessary stress. I hope everything turns out well in the end.
It is good that they sit down and talk, at least they know what my parents want and my parent know what is expected. My parents wanted everything to be simple and my hubby parents seem to have more ideas and patterns. My hubby's dad kept quiet most of the time. I think it is good that my sis family is around too. My brother-in-law did talk a bit on their own wedding.
After the whole thing, my hubby called me again. He said that his mum called him and told him that she miss out some of the things. He said that he also scolded his mum for making things difficult. He also said that our family got no problem but the problem lies on his mum. She is too excited.
Anyway, I told my hubby not to stress himself too much as these were unneccessary stress. I hope everything turns out well in the end.
My hubby called me today
he asked me for my bank account. I asked him what he wanted it for. He said that he is borrowing money from his brother for our wedding. I disagreed immediately.
My mum overheard us and said that I should not disagreed. She said that my hubby might get very stress over this. However, I have told him long ago that I dun like him to borrow money from anybody for our wedding or house. If we really wanted to borrow money, we should have get married long time ago. Why wait until now?
My mum overheard us and said that I should not disagreed. She said that my hubby might get very stress over this. However, I have told him long ago that I dun like him to borrow money from anybody for our wedding or house. If we really wanted to borrow money, we should have get married long time ago. Why wait until now?
My mum seem to be ok today.
She told me that it is time to let me go when I have already accompany her 30 years. I think my dad talk and comfort her.
My hubby told me that the meeting was changed to Monday instead of Sunday. I have began to surf Singapore brides forum with a lighter heart. I have got a few questions to ask everybody.
It seems that I got a lot of things in my mind that were not wedding stuffs and I dun have much time to blog details down.
My hubby told me that the meeting was changed to Monday instead of Sunday. I have began to surf Singapore brides forum with a lighter heart. I have got a few questions to ask everybody.
It seems that I got a lot of things in my mind that were not wedding stuffs and I dun have much time to blog details down.
I have told my mum and dad
that my hubby parents will meet us and talk about the wedding. My dad said nothing. My mum asked me when am I going to get married. I said maybe this coming Dec. My mum was expressionless. I asked her if she is all right, she said she is going to miss me. Awwwww...
We went to carefour today.
We did not talk much on the wedding. I showed him the list of restaurants and he looked it through. Then he handed it back to me and tell me that we need to confirm the date first.
My hubby looked stress. I asked him what happen and he said that he was stress over his work. I got a bit of doubt on this but I did not agrue over it. He did not tell me what kind of work stress too. He just keep quiet most of the time.
However, before we went out, he seems to be ok on the phonel. He told me that somebody called him and told him that he has won a pair of air ticket to Bangkok but we got to attend some seminar. He also told me that his mum is so excited over our wedding that she kept calling him asking him on details. He also did a rough calculation on our expense of our wedding. He seems ok all along until he went for his meeting.
Anyway, I have check with some people in the forum and they said that a wedding in this year December was possible. If I really want it fast, the only way is to go for an OTR gowns, which I dun mind at all.
My hubby looked stress. I asked him what happen and he said that he was stress over his work. I got a bit of doubt on this but I did not agrue over it. He did not tell me what kind of work stress too. He just keep quiet most of the time.
However, before we went out, he seems to be ok on the phonel. He told me that somebody called him and told him that he has won a pair of air ticket to Bangkok but we got to attend some seminar. He also told me that his mum is so excited over our wedding that she kept calling him asking him on details. He also did a rough calculation on our expense of our wedding. He seems ok all along until he went for his meeting.
Anyway, I have check with some people in the forum and they said that a wedding in this year December was possible. If I really want it fast, the only way is to go for an OTR gowns, which I dun mind at all.
last night, my hubby called.
I forgotten what were we talking about. I remember I told him that I wanted a divorce if we are not married. I told him that I did a calculation, by the time I reach 35 I can buy my own flat. We need to be separated 3 years to divorce, so we will had to apply for separation on my 32 birthday. Since a normal wedding preparation will need a year to get it done, so by the time I reach 31 on my coming birthday, we can get prepared to divorce. After telling him all these, I slam the phone down.
This morning, he called me that tell me his mum cannot sleep last night. He has actually told her to prepare for our wedding and everybody is so excited. He also told me that her mum and some aunties will be coming down to our house this Sunday. He said that they also want us to get married on this year December.
I am now thinking if my hubby wants to get married only when I threaten divorce. Well, I am not threatening him, I was serious.
This morning, he called me that tell me his mum cannot sleep last night. He has actually told her to prepare for our wedding and everybody is so excited. He also told me that her mum and some aunties will be coming down to our house this Sunday. He said that they also want us to get married on this year December.
I am now thinking if my hubby wants to get married only when I threaten divorce. Well, I am not threatening him, I was serious.
My hubby called me at last
He said that he was busy for the whole day because of the National Day Dinner he got to attend.
I told him that I thought he was too angry to called. I remind him what happen yesterday and told him that I do not know how to stay with him in the same house in future. He just brushed the topic aside.
I told him that I thought he was too angry to called. I remind him what happen yesterday and told him that I do not know how to stay with him in the same house in future. He just brushed the topic aside.
Well, my hubby has not called me
since yesterday. I guess he is still mad at me.
I got so emotional this afternoon that I cried. I lay on my bed, hide my face in my pillow and cried so that my mum will not see. I managed to calm myself down and sleep for a while. When I woke up it is already 4:30pm. This is how I waste my whole Sunday afternoon.
Well, now that I am in a btter mood, maybe I can recall a bit what I was thinking at that moment.
I was surfing the internet then. I had promised myself not to touch the Singapore Brides forum and yet my itch hands click on the link. Worest of all, I found my previous posting in the Matter of the Heart. I read some of the posting on my thread and began to cry. At that time, I feel like copying the whole entire thread to this blog here. I dunno if I should do that a not. I feel like starting the thread alive again and tell everybody on the forum that I am still waiting to get married. At this time, I broke down. I saw the the date when I first posted was last year October.
I really feel like initating a divorce with my hubby at the point of crying. I felt that since we are not getting married, why not get a divorce and goes on with life. I dun have to hang myself half way in the air not knowing what is ahead.
I wanted to get my own house when if I divorce. However, I got to wait till I am 35 which mean another 5 years. Maybe I might get my own private apartment.
I am afraid to stay with my hubby too. He flare up easily and sometimes I dun not even know what has happen.
I got so emotional this afternoon that I cried. I lay on my bed, hide my face in my pillow and cried so that my mum will not see. I managed to calm myself down and sleep for a while. When I woke up it is already 4:30pm. This is how I waste my whole Sunday afternoon.
Well, now that I am in a btter mood, maybe I can recall a bit what I was thinking at that moment.
I was surfing the internet then. I had promised myself not to touch the Singapore Brides forum and yet my itch hands click on the link. Worest of all, I found my previous posting in the Matter of the Heart. I read some of the posting on my thread and began to cry. At that time, I feel like copying the whole entire thread to this blog here. I dunno if I should do that a not. I feel like starting the thread alive again and tell everybody on the forum that I am still waiting to get married. At this time, I broke down. I saw the the date when I first posted was last year October.
I really feel like initating a divorce with my hubby at the point of crying. I felt that since we are not getting married, why not get a divorce and goes on with life. I dun have to hang myself half way in the air not knowing what is ahead.
I wanted to get my own house when if I divorce. However, I got to wait till I am 35 which mean another 5 years. Maybe I might get my own private apartment.
I am afraid to stay with my hubby too. He flare up easily and sometimes I dun not even know what has happen.
We went to ikea today
We went to ikea after he has dinner in my mum house. My ikea card was expiring and we could actually exchange our points for items. Today was the last day and I was thinking to let it expire since ikea is so far away. However, he ofter to go with me.
We brought a few stuff from ikea and decided not to go for the mid-night movie because it was a kind of rush. We went back to our new house thinking to go back settle some of the plant stuffs and then go to Geylang for some food.
We reached the new house and immediately started doing our stuff. I change a planting pot for my catus while he arranged his money plant. After we have completed our stuff, he clean up the cat shit. Out of sudden, he began to bang his things. He threw his wallet and car keys into the drawer, went into the master bedroom banging the door behind him. I was wondering what was happening.
After he has bathe, he announced that we have to go. I quickly pack my stuffs and went out of the house. I did not talk to him when he was still in an angry mood.
While in the car, I asked him what happen. He said that I was commenting that he could stand the cat shit for two days. He also said that he has done his best. I kept quiet and was thinking if I did make those comments. I did said that the house was smelly, well, it was really smelly. I did comment that he could really stand those smell. I did comment that the living room floor was dirty, well, it was really dirty, full of cat's fur everywhere.
I guess maybe I nagged and he dun like it. Anyway, I asked him to send me home because I am no longer interested in supper with him and his bad mood. Next time, when I go to my new house, I got to remember that I cannot make any comment regarding the condition of the house.
What do you think?
We brought a few stuff from ikea and decided not to go for the mid-night movie because it was a kind of rush. We went back to our new house thinking to go back settle some of the plant stuffs and then go to Geylang for some food.
We reached the new house and immediately started doing our stuff. I change a planting pot for my catus while he arranged his money plant. After we have completed our stuff, he clean up the cat shit. Out of sudden, he began to bang his things. He threw his wallet and car keys into the drawer, went into the master bedroom banging the door behind him. I was wondering what was happening.
After he has bathe, he announced that we have to go. I quickly pack my stuffs and went out of the house. I did not talk to him when he was still in an angry mood.
While in the car, I asked him what happen. He said that I was commenting that he could stand the cat shit for two days. He also said that he has done his best. I kept quiet and was thinking if I did make those comments. I did said that the house was smelly, well, it was really smelly. I did comment that he could really stand those smell. I did comment that the living room floor was dirty, well, it was really dirty, full of cat's fur everywhere.
I guess maybe I nagged and he dun like it. Anyway, I asked him to send me home because I am no longer interested in supper with him and his bad mood. Next time, when I go to my new house, I got to remember that I cannot make any comment regarding the condition of the house.
What do you think?
A Love Story:'What I Did for Love'
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl.
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked. "I can't" "Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me. "No. I am going to meet a friend." He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days.200days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.
Then one day.
Me: Um, Jin, I .
Jin: What.don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you. Jin: ..you..um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many. Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But. lunch passed, dinner passed. and soon the sky was dark. he still didn't call......... It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin.
Jin: Here.take this. Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this? Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Jin: Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted. "Wait."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me. > > > >
Jin: What?! > > > >
Me: Tell me > > > > I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. > > > > But he just said simple cold words and left. > > > > "I don't want to say.that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb.and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily. How could he.. I felt that. Maybe he is not the right guy for me.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room. everyday After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that. I saw him on a street.with another girl. He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll. I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell. Why did he gave these to me. Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that. it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What..why. I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again! I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. "I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then. Honk~ Honk~ With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him."Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted. But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. "Jin, move!" HONK~!! "Boom!" That sound, so terrifying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person. I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days. when we were in love. "One.two. three." That was how. I started to count the dolls. "Four hundred and eighty four. four hundred and eighty five." It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly. "I love you~, I love you~" I dropped the dolls,shocked. "I..lo..ve.you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. "I love you~ I love you~" It can't be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side. "I love you~" "I love you~" "I love you~" Those words came out non-stop. I.love you. Why didn't I realize that.......... That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much. I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much. "Jo.Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.. Um. since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you. everyday. till I die. Jo. I love you."
The tears came flowing out of me......... Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute. For that. and for that reason. to me. it became courage. to live a beautiful life.. It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride !
My Comment: Dun try to love a shy guy, you will be strangle to your death. Nothing could beat the three important words coming for your loves one mouth to your ears. No dolls voices can replace that. I dun find this story touching, sorry if you feel that touching. In fact I feel that the guy was stupid and the English was bad.
Female Hand Holding Wedding Cake Topper
Sokol, Howard
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"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked. "I can't" "Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me. "No. I am going to meet a friend." He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word 'love' only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days.200days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.
Then one day.
Me: Um, Jin, I .
Jin: What.don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you. Jin: ..you..um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many. Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But. lunch passed, dinner passed. and soon the sky was dark. he still didn't call......... It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin.
Jin: Here.take this. Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this? Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Jin: Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted. "Wait."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me. > > > >
Jin: What?! > > > >
Me: Tell me > > > > I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. > > > > But he just said simple cold words and left. > > > > "I don't want to say.that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb.and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily. How could he.. I felt that. Maybe he is not the right guy for me.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room. everyday After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that. I saw him on a street.with another girl. He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me as he touched the doll. I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell. Why did he gave these to me. Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that. it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What..why. I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again! I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. "I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then. Honk~ Honk~ With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him."Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted. But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. "Jin, move!" HONK~!! "Boom!" That sound, so terrifying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person. I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days. when we were in love. "One.two. three." That was how. I started to count the dolls. "Four hundred and eighty four. four hundred and eighty five." It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly. "I love you~, I love you~" I dropped the dolls,shocked. "I..lo..ve.you??" I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. "I love you~ I love you~" It can't be! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side. "I love you~" "I love you~" "I love you~" Those words came out non-stop. I.love you. Why didn't I realize that.......... That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much. I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much. "Jo.Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.. Um. since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you. everyday. till I die. Jo. I love you."
The tears came flowing out of me......... Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute. For that. and for that reason. to me. it became courage. to live a beautiful life.. It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride !
My Comment: Dun try to love a shy guy, you will be strangle to your death. Nothing could beat the three important words coming for your loves one mouth to your ears. No dolls voices can replace that. I dun find this story touching, sorry if you feel that touching. In fact I feel that the guy was stupid and the English was bad.
Female Hand Holding Wedding Cake Topper
Sokol, Howard
Buy This Allposters.com
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